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Review Round-up!
 

Lady MacBeth

In the imp: Sweeeeet reddish-purple-fruity-berry-ness. A hint of what I think is thyme.   On wet: Kool-Aid!   Drydown: 10 minutes in, and it's faded quite a bit. It's lost a lot of that berrylicious/fruity edge in favour of just pure sugary sweetness - it's actually making my teeth hurt every time I inhale! There's also a soapy, shampoo-esque thing going on now, too. I'm reminded of the "perfume" I used to get as a kid - the kind that wasn't much more than scented pink liquid in a pretty pink-capped bottle. I can't recall exactly, but I think the brand was called Tinkerbell (no relation to Disney). Not getting anything even remotely boozy or herby.   Overall: WAY too sweet for this grrl - though I'd definitely recommend it for the junior BPALers out there. A kid-friendly scent to be sure - and SO much nicer than that chemical playtime crap I'm sure is still being sold today. As I am no longer a kidlet, however, this ranks a 2/5 on my skin.
furygrrl

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this and that from Antaria
 

First LE Order

I am pretty excited about my first LE-order. I tried to avoid LEs because I'm the kind of person who won't use something that might be unique and only once in a lifetime. Or I buy 3 or more (in this case bottles) and use the first one. But I think it is time to move on and to learn that even such things should be used. It makes no sense to keep them for years and then you realize that they are not good anymore.   So here is my order: 5ml: 1 Beaver Moon, 1 Pumpkin Patch III, 1 Blood Amber, 1 The Perilous Parlor, 1 Dragon’s Blood   (I wish I did buy Dragon's Milk ... well I will order again when the yules are online - Dragon's Milk then!)   2 Imp packs containing: Windward Passage, Kill Devil, Dragon’s Eye, Dragon’s Heart, Squirting Cucumber, Obatala, Eclipse, Miskatonic University, Event Horizon, Cathode, Moon Rose, Bloodlust   Everything with Dragon's Blood just seem to be perfect for me - so I am really looking forward to Dragon's Heart and Eye and as I recall Bloodlust was with DB, too.
Antaria

Antaria

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Forspecial Plate's Blog
 

this that and the other

I went camping this weekend (well, I was in a cabin at a camp-site), and didn't bring any scent at all! I just figured, what's the point. I did bring my pillow and blanket. So I was pleasantly surprised when I walked into my cabin after a few hours and smelled......Snake Oil! Just the remnants that rubbed off my skin were enough to scent the whole cabin, not really strongly but enough that I knew it was from Snake Oil or the variations that I wear. Cool!   As for the inquisition, I think I got the one I wanted most. I may swap a decant or two to try some of the other ones. I'm mostly interested in Egg'd Mailbox and maybe Pumpkin Smash. We'll see.   I am so antsy to get my hands on my Halloween decants! Gimme! The CnS came yesterday. Now I'm worrying that Bonfire Night is going to be too sweet, based on the reviews so far. And still am up in the air about Sugar Skull. I really don't wear it that much, even though I love how it smells. Do I really need a whole bottle?   And finally, the Possets Halloween update is enormous, even bigger than I thought it would be. There is one scent that I feel like came from a suggestion I made in the Possets forum, so obviously I need to get that one. And of course 7 or 8 others that sound tantalizing. I like how Fabienne doesn't list the notes for us. For me that makes it more fun when the scents are actually in my hands, and there's more anticipation, wondering what the hell is this going to smell like (Infernal Bar-B-Que, anyone??). So, I think I'll make a smallish order first, then read reviews, and make one more larger order in a couple weeks. I could wait and order everything at once, and get free shipping, but I really don't think I can wait that long. I really want to know what Bat Fur Cloak smells like, among others.
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Review Round-up!
 

Elegba

In the imp: Mmm...smells like buttered rum lifesavers!   On wet: Lightly buttered rum. Coconut. A dry, almost herbal bitterness that I'm thinking is the tobacco. Strangely enough, I'm also getting a hint of something...minty? Weird - and yummy!   Drydown: The caramel-esque rum and sugary coconut are both deliciously straightforward. I'm not getting tobacco (or that phantom mint note) any more, but I'm sure it's helping cut the sweetness and ground the other two components.   Overall: Edible! Drink Me and Obatala's love child. Definitely a warm weather party scent - also perfect for those cold days when all you can think about is escaping the snow by jetting off to the Caribbean. Elegba is that 'one sniff and you're there' scent. 4/5
furygrrl

furygrrl

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Review Round-up!
 

Blood Countess

In the imp: Sweet fruityness - almost apple-like - and a touch of something floral.   On wet: Nothing distinct beyond sweeeeet and frooooooty.   Drydown: Blackberry at first, then that dark berry vibe gets even darker - definitely the plum. A floral haze sorta clings to the edges of those two emo fruits, and the lilac is the most notable. Still an incredibly sweeeeet blend with just a *hint* of something spicy/cinnamony underneath. Lovely.   Overall: I don't really enjoy blackberry scents as a rule (they tend to not like me very much), but this one works thanks to the plum (one of my favourite fruit notes). The fruit/light floral/spice combo makes for a very warm n' wearable blend - and it's not going potpourri/holiday candle on me, either - another bonus. My nose says it's reminiscent of Frumious Bandersnatch. I rather enjoy these plummy-spicy scents, but don't really wear them very often (just because *I* don't get candles or an Xmas sachet from them doesn't mean others don't - like my DH ) - even still, I'll be keeping my imp. 3.5/5
furygrrl

furygrrl

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Toasty Blog
 

Decanting the pumpkins

Ok, here are my early, slightly incoherent thoughts on the 2007 Pumpkin Patch scents. I didn't intentionally try any of these on, but I did get some spatter on Chief Running Wolf (that would be me) while I was decanting them.   Pumpkin I: Pumpkin with pear, white wine grapes, and jasmine-laced tea. Holy well-behaved jasmine, batman! This is a contender for my favorite of all of the Pumpkins this year. It's lightly fruited and sparkling, and just absolutely perfect on my skin. No butter, and actually no pumpkin to speak of after it dries. It reminds me of some kind of white grape soda - I think it's the Diet Rite brand. It isn't sticky sweet - just sweet enough and slightly fizzy. The jasmine stays strangely subdued. I think I will wear this frequently.   Pumpkin II: Pumpkin with tobacco, champa flower, carnation, and tonka. This is another winner for me. I've entered the twilight zone, because on me, this turns into a kissing cousin of Hellion. How that happens, I have no idea. I'm too tired to go check the notes for Hellion, but I can't imagine what they might have in common. On the extreme drydown, the tobacco gets stronger. Again, no butter, and basically no pumpkin to speak of after it dries. It also seems a little "fizzy" to me, in the same way that Hellion does. Contender for my favorite, although I think I and V edge it out just a little, if only because it's so similar to Hellion on me yet has no chance of replacing it.   Pumpkin III: Pumpkin with white chocolate, caramel, pomegranate, and cream. I predicted that this would be my favorite of the pumpkins, because, hello, yummy foody wonderfulness. But, it's not my favorite, and I'm not even 100% sure that it works on my skin. At first it was way too creamy, too tooth-achingly sweet, and too rich. I haven't been able to detect the pomegranate at all yet. Right after the first stage of the drydown, it showed signs of mellowing a bit, but I accidentally washed the scent off during decant circus intermission. (I scrub my hands after I finish decanting each scent so as not to corrupt the next one, but I usually don't wash my upper arms. I guess I got a little over zealous)This one requires further testing, but I think it's going to be a bit too foody for me.   Pumpkin IV: Pumpkin with cactus blossom, sage, and sweetgrass. Well, this was on the underside of the arm with Pumpkin III, and it hadn't even really gotten to the drydown when it was corrupted by soap. So, I can't really say if this will work for me or not, but it does have promise. This one seemed to have a fresh, summery edge.   Pumpkin V: Pumpkin with benzoin, bourbon vanilla, lemon peel, neroli, blood orange, and red ginger. Ummm, yes please! So far this seems to be my 2nd favorite of the pumpkin blends, after Pumpkin I. But with further testing, it could prove to be the best. It's complex and spicy, and I'm really loving the deep citrus edge. It seems perfectly balanced, as I can detect all the listed notes yet nothing is taking over the blend. It reminds me a little of something I tried before . . . maybe Oct 2006 13? But this is better on me, and I'm very eager to give it an actual test run.
kwsix

kwsix

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Review Round-up!
 

Velvet

In the imp: Straight-up cocoa beans - powdery and almost bitter.   On wet: Chocolate. Then the sandalwood tries to peek through - not enough to be distinct, though, so I currently smell like a Reese's PB cup, lol!!   Drydown: Mmm...starting to get a little sweeter (vanilla), a little woodier (sandalwood), a little smokier (myrrh). Hey you - myrrh - yeah, you! I think you need to calm down a bit, buddy - you're getting to be a tad too acrid for your own good. We really don't want to pull another Priala-fiasco, now do we? I want to amp choco-vanilla-sandalwood, darnit - NOT smouldering erasers.   Overall: I still smell...burnt...and somewhat sweet. I am a blackened campfire marshmallow - my charred exterior is hiding all that perfectly edible vanilla goo underneath. Not what I was looking for. I blame this unsatisfying result on wonky-PMS-skin chemistry, and will keep my imp to test again when I am *not* all hormonally unbalanced. At the moment, though, this ranks a majorly disappointing 2/5.
furygrrl

furygrrl

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Review Round-up!
 

Kubla Khan

In the imp: An almost golden-sweet vanilla. Something bright and a little sharp, too - like a high-end, citrussy hairspray.   On wet: Sweet creaminess. Jasmine. The nailpolish-remover scent of champaca. Oooh...but here comes the sandalwood, already starting to ground everything. Very, very nice.   Drydown: Complex and lovely. The vanilla and sandalwood make for a wonderfully sweet-yet-stable base - creamy, warm, and golden. The champaca - a note that never fails to hate me regardless of how many times I try it out - has finally decided to pull back and play nice, making friends with the jasmine, tag-teaming to become this general haze of pretty floral-ness. I can smell an undercurrent of spicy smokiness, too - opium and ginger making the scene at last. There's the leather - it's slightly sour against the other notes.   Roses, lily, hay, tobacco...I'm sure they're all in there too, but I can't pick them out specifically - that's how busy and well-blended this scent is.   Overall: I'm really enjoying this! It's an almost syrupy sweet floral, saved from being too heady or too generic or too frou-frou (ie. only to be worn to expensive restaurants or similarly classy engagements) by that deliciously smoky, lightly spiced, golden cream combo of the vanilla-sandalwood-opium-ginger (and possibly tobacco). It *did* start off a bit...louder...than I usually like, but within 5-10 minutes, it settled down into the gorgeous, darkly playful skin-scent I'm getting - and can't stop sniffing! - now. A unique composition (to my nose, at any rate), one that might need to be upgraded to a bottle in the near future. 4/5
furygrrl

furygrrl

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giant squid!
 

Beaver Moon... !

Wow what an update- I certainly was not prepared for all of this...my bank account most definitely wasn't prepared either, lol. Once again, I'm wishing I had a money tree...   Beaver Moon Wild cherry with vanilla cream accord, and a hint of strawberry I loved Bloody Mary, so I am thinking I will probably love this, too. Bottle...   Swan Maiden White gardenia, white iris, sandalwood, calla lily, French magnolia, muguet, jonquil, and orchid hm... I love gardenia, iris, sandalwood and orchid, but I really don't like magnolia at all. I think for the sake of my finances I'm going to miss taking a gamble on this one for now. If the reviews turn out to downplay the magnolia then I will try and hunt down some of it.   Scorpio Dark musk, wormwood, basil, dragon’s blood resin, galangal, and opoponax Mmmmmm. Dark, musky, and resinous. with basil. definitely buying a bottle of this!   Ile de la Tortue Damp air trapped in limestone caverns, heady greenery, hothouse orchids, nicotiana blossoms, bois de chandel, elemi, palm wine, garambullo, pega-pega, flame of the forest, and a swirl of Haitian vetiver This sounds promising. I love the idea of caverns and greenery- add vetiver and that makes me even happier. I would love to order a bottle unsniffed since I'm pretty sure I'll love it, but I don't have enough money- for now I'll get an imp.   Windward Passage Marine accord, seaweed, and bladderwrack Hmm..I think this might not be one for me. I am not an aquatic lover (although I used to be in high school and when I was a young child- weird) so I think I will put off trying this...   Kill-Devil Sugar cane, molasses, oak wood, and honey Grog really didn't work on me but I have a feeling this might. I love oak and honey, so let's hope the other notes don't turn it too sickly sweet! Imp for now...   Plunder Tea leaf, cassia, cinnamon bark, clove, allspice, sandalwood, tobacco, peppercorn, and nutmeg I think I may need to buy a bottle of this unsniffed. This sounds like an amazing spicy tea blend...I love spices, so I can't see how this could possibly go wrong on me.   Pirate Moon Red musk, ambergris, coconut palm, red sandalwood, balsam, date, warm leather, tobacco, ebony, lingum vitae wood, pandanus grass, an' a touch o' lime This also sounds delicious. There's not a note in this one that I don't like. I am definitey ordering multiple bottles if I can. I am so interested to see how the lime plays into the darker notes...   The Phoenix Sea air, gunpowder, lime, salt-crusted wood, a splash of blood, and a dribble of Snake Oil Eeeeee... another Snake Oil blend!!! I ordered two bottle of this right away. I think it will be absolutely phenomenal with the lime, smokiness and touch of salt.   Midnight Kiss Red musk, cocoa absolute, Nepalese amber, red sandalwood, aged patchouli, nicotiana, and blood wine Oh my goodness...this one sounds so rich and sensual! I ordered this right away since I didn't want to miss it (like I did with Crypt Queen ). I hope it's somewhat like a richer Tezcatlipoca or Centzon Totochtin. I love those rich and spicy cocoa blends.   Vampire Tears Wisteria, white grapefruit, neroli, green tea, jasmine, white ginger, honeysuckle, iris, and tonka I was not so crazy about this one when I read the notes....I am not the biggest jasmine fan as it can go sharp on me, and jasmine plus honeysuckle and iris might equal a floral disaster. I am going to pass on this for now- hopefully it doesn't turn out to be something I would have loved.
euterpe414

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Sourball Ho!
 

Update!

Lottsa stuffs!   Beaver Moon -- wild cherry with vanilla cream accord, and a hint of strawberry. Boy howdy, this sounds a lot like MB: Bloody Mary. I like Bloody Mary but it seems to disappear quickly. Swan Maiden -- White gardenia, white iris, sandalwood, calla lily, French magnolia, muguet, jonquil, and orchid. Lots of white florals, not my thing. Scorpio 2007 -- Dark musk, wormwood, basil, dragon's blood resin, galangal, and opoponax. While I love the musky blends, I don't like wormwood. Midnight Kiss -- Eternal desire, unquenchable passion: red musk, cocoa absolute, Nepalese amber, red sandalwood, aged patchouli, nicotiana, and blood wine. Mmmm, every single ingredient sounds great. Vampire Tears -- Regret born from ceaseless longing: wisteria, white grapefruit, neroli, green tea, jasmine, white ginger, honeysuckle, iris, and tonka. This blend definitely has an Asian vibe, but doesn't sound great for me.   Ile de la Tortue -- Damp air trapped in limestone caverns, heady greenery, hothouse orchids, nicotiana blossoms, bois de chandel, elemi, palm wine, garambullo, pega-pega, flame of the forest, and a swirl of Haitian vetiver. These ingredients sound really cool (pega-pega? flame of the forest?), but I'm afraid it will be too green and aquatic. Windward Passage -- Breezes blowing off of the waters of the Caribbean: marine accord, seaweed, and bladderwrack. Another aquatic, we'll wait and see on this one. Kill-Devil -- Sugar cane, molasses, oak wood, and honey. Oooh, I have yet to try a blend featuring molasses. Definitely want to read reviews. Plunder -- The scent of a pirate's bumboat, overflowing with stolen wares: tea leaf, cassia, cinnamon bark, clove, allspice, sandalwood, tobacco, peppercorn, and nutmeg. Cassia and cinnamon really amp on me and aren't a favorite.   And a couple of forum-only blends!   Pirate Moon -- Red musk, ambergris, coconut palm, red sandalwood, balsam, date, warm leather, tobacco, ebony, lingum vitae wood, pandanus grass, an' a touch o' lime. Two red musk blends in an update? I can't resist this one, it sounds bootylicious (yarr!). The Phoenix -- Sea air, gunpowder, lime, salt-crusted wood, a splash of blood, and a dribble of Snake Oil. Probably too masculine with the assorted manly ingredients. I do like when Snake Oil makes an appearance.   In conclusion: I ordered Midnight Kiss and Pirate Moon!
dawndie

dawndie

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this and that from Antaria
 

tendovaginitis - short break

i guess i won't be able to write a lot in this week - i haven't seen a doctor but it's quite obvious: i have a tendovaginitis. i try to write with my left hand and to handle the mouse with the left hand. it's not as funny as i hoped ...
Antaria

Antaria

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Forspecial Plate's Blog
 

too many decisions!

I'm resisting the urge to order another Trick Or Treat Inquisition scent. I keep telling myself, just wait....because I don't even know which scent I'll get with my first order, because Possets' fall update is at the end of the week, because bpal may or may not have an update coming soon....not to mention the other bpal Halloween scents that I want, that I still haven't ordered yet.....all very good reasons, but I want another Trick Or Treat order pending, dammit!
forspecial_plate

forspecial_plate

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Forspecial Plate's Blog
 

fall madness/perfume overload

I have so many different perfumes now, that sometimes wearing just one isn't enough. I get too impatient to try something else. So I end up smelling like 2 or 3 different ones, and it kind of turns into perfume overload. Like they all just get lost in a cloud of too much smelliness. I'm getting better lately, though, and trying to be patient and just wear one for a while before trying another one. I still have quite a few new scents that I haven't reviewed or even tried yet. It's a little out of control, and when I look at my wish list, I kind of think to myself "you're kidding, right? you need MORE??".   On a different note....I already knew that I like fall scents year-round, including in the heat of summer. Lately, though, I've noticed that I don't reach for the 'red' summer scents, now that I'm in a fall mood. Red Moon and Corazon are two examples, I just haven't felt like wearing them at all lately. Maybe that's because I'm sooo hyped about the fall scents right now. I do sometimes like the winter scents in different seasons. I wore Jolasveinar and Midnight Mass a few times over the summer.   Speaking of fall scents, I'm starting to wonder just a little about my decants. I've bought from this gal before so I'm not too worried, I'm just wondering what stage we're at......has the CnS come yet? Has she actually got the package yet? Are they on the way to us (doubt it)?? I'm just so impatient for these, so I can go ahead and place another order. Also, when I look at which Pumpkin Patch decants I ordered, I kind of wonder what I was thinking. I ordered 2, 4 and 5. Now I wish I could try 3 also. I'm pretty sure without sniffing that I'll like 3 and 5. I think I ordered 2 just to see how the champaca or champa plays out in it. It's a note that I like but it sometimes takes over a scent for me.   I'm also really really excited about the Possets fall update, coming soon. One more week! I know I need to set aside at least $50 or $60 for that, probably more..... *sigh*
forspecial_plate

forspecial_plate

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Welcome to the Abatoir
 

ASSHOLE

GOD! This chick on ebay sold me the BPAL 5ml of Privilege and after numerous emails to her about payment methods I never got a response. So I emialed her a final time and said, since you have not communicated with me about payment, I can't pay you and I'm guessing I wopn't get the item. She finally emails me today saying she has responded to ALL my emails and starts giving me attitude about the whole thing. What a bitch!!!! I hate people so much! I was totally nice in my emails and very respectful as not to make her angry and have this be a smooth transaction, but NO. she is obviously one of those people who just loves to pick a fight with everyone! how annoying!! I am not leaving her any feedback and if she leaves me some I will leave her negative feedback!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH! Okay I'm over it. I'm setting it down now and it means nothing to me. Its in the past and I have no control over this person or her actions and I except it. Now, onto better things!!! School starts in two days! so stoked to learn again!!
Meshuganah

Meshuganah

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Diplomatka
 

Floods

The excerpt below is from CNN. In Ethiopia we have had thousands of people stranded on high ground surrounded by water with crocodiles and poisoned snakes over the past two weeks. The US is only pledging 100K to help the people affected by the disaster, which is bullshit. I give money to MSF whenever there is a similar crisis--I suggest you do too.       AMURIA DISTRICT, Uganda (AP) -- Aid agencies were appealing for millions of dollars Friday to help more than 1 million Africans affected by deadly floods that have swept across the continent.   The United States planned to send $100,000 for Uganda -- one of the hardest hit countries -- and Europe announced more than $15 million in aid for flood victims across 17 countries. The floods have killed at least 200 people and displaced hundreds of thousands since the summer in central and eastern Africa.   "If we don't get food people will die in this place," Francis Aruo, 28, told The Associated Press in eastern Uganda, one of the hardest-hit regions of Africa. "All our crops are rotten."   The United Nations asked for $43 million for Uganda, where 50 people have died. Theophane Nikyema, U.N. Humanitarian coordinator for Uganda, said the money will help address the "devastation left behind by the rising tide of water."   The European Commission is planning to send $15.45 million in humanitarian aid to help flood victims, said Louis Michel, the European Commissioner for Development and Humanitarian Aid. The United States was sending $100,000 for Uganda, said Steven Browning, the country's U.S. ambassador.   In Uganda's Amuria District, which was put under a state of emergency this week, more than 500 people were taking shelter in a seven-room schoolhouse, which was meant to open for a new term last week.   "It's a struggle for accommodations," said Gilbert Omeke, the school's head teacher. "Some people are fighting for space. I have designated one classroom for expectant mothers and the elderly but so many more don't find space."   UNICEF was distributing basic disease-prevention kits, including plastic sheeting and water purification tablets, but medical officials said illnesses were spreading.   Florence Asega, a nurse at the closest health clinic to the school, some three miles away, said children were increasingly suffering from malaria and diarrhea.   "In the cramped, wet conditions coughs and infections spread quickly," she added.   In nearby Katakwi District, latrines were overflowing and hundreds of mud huts had collapsed. The nearest World Food Program distribution site was nearly four miles away, through waist-high floodwater.   Aruo has made the journey twice so far, returning with 65 pounds of maize, groundnuts and cooking oil for his wife and three children.   "It's a very tedious journey because it is water the whole way, the food is very heavy and some people have to leave some behind because they can't carry it," he said.
Confection

Confection

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this and that from Antaria
 

A visit by surprise!

A year ago a coworker of mine (wasn't working in the same department though) moved away from here. I was pretty sad about that. Sometimes I had problems with her because she is even more fragile goods than I am ... but I liked her a lot. We always had a lot to talk and to learn from each other and enjoyed our time together.   When she moved I knew that I wouldn't hear from her any more.   I got one call and one mail ... well, she didn't get much more from me. It was just so obvious that our friendship would end here.   Today she came here by surprise Another friend of hers is celebrating her birthday and she wanted to give me a quick visit, too. And she has got a new car, a job (finally! She searched so hard!) and - tada!! - she is pregnant!   She is one of those woman that I think become really good mothers. I know she's a bit "childish" (that sounds so wrong - there is nothing wrong with being a bit childish - you always should be!) - well, skip this ... I can't put it into the right words ... anyway, I am convinced that she will grow with her task and I am so happy for her and her husband   But ... yes, of course, there HAD to be a "but" - anytime I hear that someone is pregnant or just had her child ... I want that too. I know I am childish - and now I mean it in not only the positive way! - but I know I'm going to be a good mother. And Olli a great father - specially when we should have a boy that likes planes It's a kind of jealousy. Not that I don't want THEM to have a child - I really do - but in the way that I want, too. But that will have to wait. I don't have a perpetual job, Olli and I aren't married yet - and those are things that I want to have before we think about children (we already know we want two - we hope for one boy and one girl). It's just that I feel so damn fragile right now (hand, sleep, family) and now it hits me like a slap into my face to have to cope from the "I want to get pregnant, too!"   But it was so nice to see her - and so great to know that they're going to be a family in March
Antaria

Antaria

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this and that from Antaria
 

What is going on?

Really, I don't know myself any more!   I'm so tired that I could start to cry - but I slept enough and good! But I'm so desperately tired that the line between "normal at work" and "having a breakdown and cry for a while" is pretty thin ...   It is so good to know that today is Friday and I can go home soon and then I will lay down in our wonderful bed and sleep. I will stand up shortly before Olli can go home and I will prepare something to eat. Then we'll go to the grocery store and after that I won't do anything anymore.   Tomorrow we'll go to a barbecue - only for 1-2 hours and after that to my friends birthday party. On Sunday I'll visit my parents because my relatives will be there.   ----- got a mail in the meantime. Olli will eat with his coworkers ... the good thing: I don't have to prepare anything for him. The bad thing: I already decided yesterday what to eat today and because it was something new I was excited about it ... I love eating. And normally cooking. Well, there is no use in preparing the meal I planed, it's too much for one person and tomorrow it won't be as good any more.   Anyway, I guess my bad mood - it does not feel like a "mood" - may be it is because of my hand. It really hurts. A lot. And it's not getting better. I hope the weekend will bring some improvement. If not I will have to see a doctor next week. Which won't be good. My boss knows that my relatives come to visit and it will look like skipping work. I hope it's not a tendovaginitis ... I had already one and besides that it is not nice (specially for someone who works on an computer and loves to paint, write and do all kind of stuff with the hands - well, this sure sounds weird!) it will mean that I have to stay away from work for some time - which is something that makes me feel bad. I am afraid to never get an perpetual job and I feel remorse. I never skipped work or school - when I stay at home it is always for a good reason. But still ... I feel guilty and bad about it.   4h30min to go ... then I will have to drive approx. 30 min till I'm home (driving is terrible because of the hand) and then:
Antaria

Antaria

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Toasty Blog
 

My bottles

I went through a purging stage and got rid of many of my bottles, but now I'm starting to hoard again. I have multiples of some of these. This list is from memory, so it's very likely that I've forgotten some things.   10ml: Bordello Hellion Voodoo (almost empty)   5ml: 13 (2005, white label) 13 (July 2007, pink label) A Bachelor's Dog A Bold Bluff Agnes Nutter All Souls 06 Arachnina the Spider Girl Arcana Aziraphale Black Tower Blood Bordello Chrysanthemum Moon Crowley Devil's Night Door 13 Djinn Enraged Groundhog Musk Fairy Market Faiza the Black Mamba Florence Frumious Bandersnatch (almost empty waaaaah) Halôa Harvest Moon 06 Hetairae Hunger Moon Inferno (almost empty waaaaah) Lampades Leo 07 Monster Bait: Bloody Mary Monster Bait: Tokyo Stomp Monster Bait: Underpants NYE in Dogville One to Tie, Two to Win The Organ Grinder Pinched With Four Aces Priala the Human Phoenix Punkie Night Queen of the Nile Samhain 05 Saw Scaled Viper (almost empty waaaah) Shadwell Sitting Up With a Sick Friend Sugar Skull 05 Temple Viper Three Witches Tristran Tweedledee Velvet Victoria War The Wildmen of Jezirat al Tennyn The Witch Queen Wulric the Wolfman Yvaine
kwsix

kwsix

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BPAL Scents I Have Tried

This is a list of all the BPAL scents I have tried (as far as I can remember--I haven't kept very good records and most of this was a couple years ago).   Scents I Like - * means I have a bottle   Amsterdam* Belladonna Bengal Brimstone* Cheshire Cat* Chimera The Coil Coyote* Door* Gommorah Grr Has No Hanna* Hermia* Jezirat Al Tennyn* Jolly Roger* Lady Amalthea* Litha* Marquis de Merteuil Mistletoe '07* Nine Muses (TAL)* Oof Orpheus (Salon I)* Pepper* Persephone Robin Goodfellow* Rosalind* Schrodinger's Cat Shattered* Squirting Cucumber* Tempest Three Gorgons* Tweedledee Tulzscha* The Unicorn Vinland* White Light (TAL)* Wolf Moon '06 The World (Tarot)* Yellow Jessamine Honey Yggdrasil Zephyr   Scents I Didn't Like Enough to Keep - * means I'm open to trying again (some of these were a long time ago, and I got trade happy )   Absinthe Aelopile Aeval Ahathoor Alice All They Had Seen, And All They Had Lost Anne Bonny The Antikythera Mechanism The Apothecary Arkham Aureus Baron Samedi Bastet Belladonna Bess Black Forest Brass Balls (TAL) Caliban Calico Jack Charisma (TAL) Christmas Rose The Clod and the Pebble Cobra Lily Come To Me Croquet Crossroads Danube Death Cap Desdemona Dirty Dorian Dragon Moon Dragon's Eye Dragon's Tears Dream of the Fisherman's Wife Dyan Moon Earth Rat El Dia De Reyes Egle Envy Erato Eros Eternal The Evening Star Fae Fire of Love French Love Gibbous Moon Gingerbread Poppet '07 Goblin Green Phoenix Hades Hamadryad Helena The Hierophant (Tarot) Holiday Moon Humpback Whale Hurricane Imp The Jersey Devil Jezebel Jolasveinar '07 Kabuki Kali The Lady of Shalott Libertine Lightning The Lilac Wood The Lion Lionheart (TAL) The Living Flame Lyonesse Mad Hatter Mag Mell Malediction Manhattan Mantle of Venus (TAL) March Hare Marcilla Megaera Midnight The Miller's Daughter Moon Rose Morocco My Mom With The Sun In Her Hands Nemesis Night Thoughts No. 93 Engine Nosferatu Nowhere In Particular Nuclear Winter Oberon Pannychis The Passionate Shepherd to his Love Perchta Perversion Phantom Queen Plunder Poisoned Apple Queen Gertrude Queen Mab Quietude Ra The Ragged Wood The Raven [Redacted] Dragon The Rose Rumpelstilzchen Salon I: Carceri d'Invenzione Salon I: Cloister Graveyard In The Snow Salon I: The Isle Of The Dead Salon I: Satan and Death with Sin Intervening Salon I: Two Monsters Samhain Santa Muerte The Sea Foams Blood Sea of Glass Shoggoth Shroud Singing Moon Skadi Snake Oil The Snow Storm Snow White '07 Succubus Summoning Stone Play Structure Sundew Szepasszony There's A Certain Slant of Light Thunderbird Tzadikim Nistarim Ugh Ultraviolet Undertow Venice Vicomte de Valmont Viola Vixen Voodoo War White Rabbit Whippoorwill Whitechapel Windward Passage Wrath Yew Trees Y'ha-nthlei Zombi   Scents I Dislike   Cathode Centzon Totochtin Dracul Dragon's Blood Harvest Moon '06 House Of Night Jack O Scherezade Venom
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Confused - again!

I talked to the head of the staff council about my job and I am afraid I said something wrong about the other job I applied for a few months ago ... I just stated that it made me insecure and seemed so ... wrong. It was sort of an accusation but I wanted to stress that it made me think about some stuff ... the man was okay, in the end he told me not to be so insecure and not to think about it too much, it will all turn out good.   I hope so.   I try to relax.   I am the stand-in for a parental leave and we all assumed that the mother won't come back (it really isn't very likely). So I hoped to get this job perpetual once. We all assumed that next year the woman will have to declare whether she will come back or not. Now the man said something about "till the children are 18" - now I am so confused. 18? That would change the situation a lot!   He said that he would check on that and call back. He did not ... at least not till now.
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Family problems 7th or - indifferent?

Yesterday I tried to call the sister a hundred times - well, make it 15 and you have the truth.   It seemed that nobody was at home.   Or can they see my number and they decided just not to answer? I guess that's paranoid from me.   Anyway - I didn't catch her. And with every try I was a bit more indifferent. My heart was still going faster when picking up the phone and dialing their number, but somehow I relaxed more and more.   I did talk at least a little bit to Olli - no fight, no anger - but comprehension. And deep inside of me I know that this would of course be the way in which he'd react. I even told him that I feel like they are coming to our place and forget about their children and behave like "Well, does it really matter what they do?" - and he agreed. That was nice.   The urge to get over with it fast is disappearing slowly. I don't have the speech in my head all the time - perhaps because I did write it down.   I hope I stay in this mood!
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Family problems 6th or "shut up"

Okay ... I know I wrote that I feel better. Now I don't. I couldn't resist to talk to my dear coworker Mike (I think I already wrote something about him) and that brought all back. He absolutely agrees with me but I don't like his idea of what to do when the next family visit is as all the others have been: "Don't invite them any more". And that's not what I want. I want them to come but I want the parents to look after their kids - but I can't say something like that, can I?   So I have this wonderful little speech in my head about me being raised in a different way, me hoping to be able to say how I wish my home would be without hurting anyone and so on. And this speech is on repeat. It goes round and round in my head with objections like "The only important thing is that you and Olli cope. That you have no problems".   Well ... we have. No, we are not fighting. But he's somewhere in the middle between me and his family and I don't want to hurt him. So I keep some thoughts to myself. But I am disappointed because he attacked my from behind stating in front of his parents that is it not so important whether there are scratches on the floor or not, it is not our floor (right, but I live on it, right?) and so on.   I would like to talk about it with him. But I am afraid it will end in a fight. He has his own big problems right now with his work. I try to help, but you know how it is. So I don't want to make it worst and don't say a thing while being afraid that "The only important thing is that you and Olli cope. That you have no problems" is a fragile thing.   I don't have the strength for a fight. The problem is we are both so alike ... we hurt fast, we talk before we thought about how the other might feel about it, we start to scream and to pout. Usually it does not take a long time till everything is okay again, but ... I won't stand it again. I will collapse ... I feel how I crumble inside and that is not good. I want to talk with his sister - but I won't be able to do it soon. I would have time today or tomorrow. But I guess she won't (I will check it and call her today - I don't want to talk about this on the phone). So this week it won't work. Next week (+weekends) my relatives from Finland are here to visit my parents - and us. So I won't have time. So it will be someday in October - that's pretty late and if this speech is in my head all the time, I will go crazy. That's why the Blog Entry Title - I wish the speech would shut up   (Perhaps I should write it down once? Will that make it silent?)
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