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Argentwolf's Blog
 

Anathema

Category: Sin & Salvation   In the imp: A very heavy, dark scent reminiscent of incense.   Wet: It honestly smells like a really, thick, resin-based incense to me, with a floral sweetness around the edges. I'm not familiar at all with opium, but perhaps this is what's producting that? Very interesting.   Dry: It softens down pretty drastically to a leftover sort of flower scent. I'm wanting to associate that with the honeysuckle.   Verdict: This scent intrigues me even more now because I could have sworn that this was an 'incense' scent...but no, it's florals. Which is amusing because I was comparing it to other incense scents I've worn, and thinking that I'd found my happy medium there. My only criticism of this scent is that it didn't have the throw that I desired. It tends to last a while, though, and it's just lovely all-around as far as I'm concerned, even if it doesn't quite justify a bottle.   What I liked: It combined sweetness with the smoky quality that I love about incense, and yet had a nice, thick, sticky body to it, as well.   What I didn't like: I want to reek, dammit! In the good way! I'm strange.   I'm scratching my head about the vetiver. Maybe that wasn't the problem with Alecto, then? Because I didn't detect anything sour about this, at all. I'm just not sure. It's really a shame about Alecto, because I really liked the leafy quality that it had...but it made me smell like I was on my period or something. Ick.   I'm tending to ramble today, apparently.
Argentwolf

Argentwolf

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Lump of Coal

Ok, fine. It isn't really a lump of coal, but brownies and coal are vaguely similar in color! -- and you know you could never be naughty enough for us to really toss a coal at you! After all, we specialize in sin at Black Phoenix. This is the truly sinful scent of a sticky, thick, dark and rich fudge brownie.   Reviewed 02/22/2008   I'll cut to the chase with this one: there is no morph, no difference between imp and wet and drydown, it is pure chocolate decadence. It is spot-on in capturing the scent of a pan of brownies, fresh out of the oven, with the edges a bit crispy and the middle still gooey and sticky. YUM.
Rovylern

Rovylern

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vultureguy's Blog
 

Relay for Life

I'm doing the Relay for Life again this year. It's today and the weather absolutely sucks. It wouldn't be a big deal but the stadium is an outdoors stadium. We have a marquis-style tent thingie to shelter in but the 2 green couches they took from work are going to get soaked so we may not have them after all. Bummer They are soooo nice when you've been walking for 1/2 an hour or more.   I'm taking Satyr in my 1 ml rollerbottle. The scent isn't going to give people headaches in the tight confines and I'll still smell good. The spice might keep me awake a bit more, although I do pretty well with that on my own, I'm a night owl!   We are going to the PO in a bit I'm expecting packages!! My Ebay should be here, maybe some of my decants and a Snacksters package too. I havent' heard from the LJ/forum person about the sale I paid for on 23/1. I've tried emailing and commenting on the original post. I tried to PM but her inbox is full. I really don't want to just leave negative feedback but I'm going to have to. If the imps aren't in the post today I'll try one more email, leave it a week and then leave negative feedback. I think I can amend the feedback if things change later but the fact that she hasn't even replied to any of my comments or my email isn't a good sign. It's frustrating.
vultureguy

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Argentwolf's Blog
 

Amsterdam

Category: Wanderlust   In the imp: It's like sinking your nose into a bouquet of tulips, literally -- that light scent, with an almost peppery air to it, like pollen, all dappled with drops of water.   Wet: The light tulip scent is predominant, though the scary pollen edge to it is gone. It's very evocative of lush green grass in the morning hours, laden with dew. I don't get a 'crisp' note so much as a 'juicy' one: plump tulip heads, thick blades of grass, fat drops of dew sliding down the sides of them all.   Dry: It's as if the sun has come out and dried the grass; now it has a sort of moist, healthy air to it, the tulip scent almost ethereal, with a more traditional 'perfumey' note to it..perhaps that's the peony.   Verdict: Oh, if only this had more throw, and lasted longer! It's beautiful! Once again I am in awe of the perfumist's art of being able to capture such imagery in a bottle. I would highly recommend this to people who like unadulterated (non-perfumey) florals, nature scents, and possibly to those who like aquatic scents. I hate to discard it anytime soon, so I will probably hang onto the imp for a while at least.   What I liked: The light floral scent, and the fact that it smells like a grassy yard in springtime. Mmmmm.   What I didn't like: That it's so shy! It just sort of pokes its head out to show me that it's pretty, and then evaporates. Wahhh!!
Argentwolf

Argentwolf

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Midwinter's Eve 2005

A melancholy, deep scent, poignant and brimming with nostalgia. The perfume of sugared plums over a breeze of winter flowers.   Reviewed 02/18/2008   In the bottle: Mmm, berries.   Wet: Luscious, juicy berries. I don't know plum well enough to know if it's plum specifically, but it's wonderful.   Drydown: Still very juicy. The berries are on top, but there is something underneath that makes it feel cold to my nose. It's an actual sensation; the insides of my nostrils feel cold if I bring my hand to my nose and sniff closely. I really love this. It did make me itch for a short time, but it didn't last and didn't make the skin red at all. It's got a good wear time, but the throw isn't as strong as I'd like.
Rovylern

Rovylern

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Argentwolf's Blog
 

Al-Shairan

Category: Excolo   In the imp: Cinnamon, patchouli, and orange...very, very warm and spicy.   Wet: It starts out spicy, peppery, a scent with bite; the patchouli attacks your nose with the spiky texture of its scent. Then it seems to dissolve and turn smokey, like a newly-lit stick of incense. There's definitely a strong note of both patchouli and orange, mixed with the darker notes of the other incense. It smells exactly like a little clothing shop that I used to go to...it's a gorgeous scent, and very 'incensey' without becoming obnoxious.   Dry: Unfortunately, it grows faint pretty quickly. The airy quality of it takes on a more woody sort of tone, and reaches a strange juxtaposition in that it's earthy and 'grounded', while the faintness of it makes it ethereal.   Verdict: I really like it, I just wish that it stuck around longer...Come back, dammit, I like youuuuu!!   What I liked: Orange FTW!!!!! Also the cinnamon. I was afraid of the patchouli, but it behaved itself quite nicely.   What I didn't like: Its throw diminished pretty quickly, and its staying power is pretty minimal.   This is interesting to compare with Al Azif; where Azif is sweeter and more candylike to me, Shairan is very much a stereotypical incense scent to me. I'm thinking if I can find a happy medium, that has decent throw and lasts throughout the day, that I'd be really happy.
Argentwolf

Argentwolf

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Chez NorthAtlantic
 

Diva-licious musings (TMI ahead)

Adventures in environmentally sound bearded clam husbandry follow. If you're easily squicked by "woman things," you will probably want to bail out now. If, however, you're interested in a user review of the Diva Cup, then by all means, read on!      
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Argentwolf's Blog
 

Alice

Category: Mad Tea Party   In the imp: Honey, with a very warm tone to it.   Wet: Thick, sweet, honeyed cream, with a bit of spiciness to it.   Dry: The floral scents come out to me as it dries, and it 'cools off' as in the honey note becomes more subdued, though it never quite disappears...more like it coats the petals of the flowers (and I'm wanting to say that I smell more carnation than rose). And yet, there's a powdery note to it, as well...I'm wanting to call it 'baby powder' only because it's a very light, feminine, innocent sort of tone...not soapy or strident at all.   Verdict: I can see why this is a popular scent; it's *really* lovely, and very feminine, very elegant in an innocent sort of way. Unfortunately, it has *no* throw or lasting power on me at all, which makes me very sad. I'm reluctant to get rid of it because it's so pretty, so hopefully I'll be able to find another use for it.   What I liked: The honey and the floral scent.   What I didn't like: It's too weak! Sadness.   I have to wonder what sort of lotion this would make.
Argentwolf

Argentwolf

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Sourball Ho!
 

Update and my stash!

I got bogged down and couldn’t update my BPAL blog, but have continued to purchase. Since the last entry I’ve purchased bottles of:   Minotaur Temple Viper (these two were purchased from a forum buddy, both smell amazing) Black Lace Prospero (these two were my “normal” purchase one month from Dark Delicacies instead of the Lab. Both are really nice) Hony Mone Blood Phoenix Chanukkiyah (I was underwhelmed by these 3, but hopefully aging will help) Numb Peacock Queen 2005 (these two recently purchased from another forumite) I Married a Vampire from Planet X Diary of a Lovestruck Teenage Cannibal (Vampire is a bit too masculine, but Teenage Cannibal is nice) Anactoria Lunar Eclipse (recent update)   Regarding Numb: it’s gotten a bad rap and I don’t know why. I bought Numb brand-new from the Lab when it was offered in July 2005. I liked it well enough, it was like frozen sugared violets, but unfortunately I broke out in a rash the few times I wore it. I gave it to my mom, and when we went to visit for Christmas I was looking at her stash (I’ve also given her Harvest Moon 2004 and Taurus 2007) and noticed that Numb was almost empty. She loves it! It’s her favorite and she asked if I could get her another bottle for her birthday.   I finally took recent pictures of my collection. I enjoy reading about other collections and what people love. I’ve been buying directly from the Lab for over 3 years and have over 100 bottles of favorites. Here’s the main box, it’s a tin from a men’s cologne set that DH had received. I was so excited when the shipments started arriving with special BPAL orange shipping tape, *dork alert* I would carefully peel it off to stick on the tin.   Here’s a picture of the inside, it’s totally full and I’ve started a second box. The bottles are in order based on when they were received, which makes less and less sense. If I’m looking for a bottle I can make a good guess where it will be, but it’s hard to browse if I’m trying to decide what to wear out of the blue.     My special imp tin: these are imps or decants that I want to keep. There’s my one tarted imp (Alice); even though I have a bottle I’ll never get rid of the imp just because it’s the way imps aren’t done anymore. I also have some single note decants, Tomato Leaf is peeking out. The labels have the She-Devil forum skin logo, there are a few others floating around in there. These were won in the forum fundraising raffle in April 2006.     My backup box contains Arcana and Possets bottles, new BPAL bottles arriving and tested imps that I don’t care to keep. I’d love to have a nice display rack of some kind, because the labels are kick-ass and I could see everything. But how is that possible? I’d need a wall at this point.  
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Pink Moon 2005

The name of this moon refers to the color of wild ground phlox, a primary component of this Lunacy Blend, which is one of the most widespread floral signposts of springtime in North America. This Lunar blend is soft with phlox, tulip, daffodil, dogwood and muscari, dusted with pink sugar and honey, and a touch of the first strawberries of the season.   Reviewed 02/11/2008   Pink Moon 2007 didn't work on me at all, so I was nervous about trying the earlier version. Needlessly worried, I discovered. This is beautiful!   In the imp: Sweet and floral, but not overpowering Avon-ish floral.   Wet: Sugared flowers, the kind you see used to decorate cakes.   Drydown: Flowers and a sweetness that might be sugar or honey or even a hint of strawberry. It's very delicate and feminine. It sings Spring to me, and I need that at this time of year. I want to slather this all over the next time the temperature dips below freezing so I can daydream about little pink flowers and budding greenery. It has a surprisingly good weartime for such a delicate scent.
Rovylern

Rovylern

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Trick or Treat

The sticky sweet scent of candy corn!   Reviewed 02/11/2008   In the bottle: Buttered corn. Not candy corn, real corn.   Wet: Creamed corn. Eek!   Drydown: Butter and sugar, maybe nutmeg and cinnamon? The spicy part smells like a bottle of pumpkin pie spice. Thank *goodness* the real corn scent faded! It doesn't really smell like candy corn on me, but it does smell good. It has a very definite fall feel to it. I don't get any of the booziness that some reviews have mentioned, and that makes me happy as most of the Lab's booze notes don't work well on me. This is foody but not overly so; it doesn't scream "Eat me!" in your face the way something like El Dia de Reyes does. I think it would be wearable even for people who don't tend to like foody scents.
Rovylern

Rovylern

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vultureguy's Blog
 

Pending Sales

I've counted and we have 10 pending sales plus the lab Ebay sale I won which is already on it's way thanks to the illustrious Ted.   Plus I'm getting ready to put in our combined order. I wanted to put it in by tonight but haven't heard from Symone yet to confirm hers are all bottles and not imps given the price (approx $65NZ). I might just put the order in if I haven't heard from her by tomorrow 'cause I'm pretty sure that's what she wants and I know she doesn't check her mail/internet regularly.   I vascillate, wanting to put more Lupercalias & Shungas on this order and telling myself I can wait until March.   Just for us on this order I've got Her Voice Muse CHESHIRE MOON LUNAR ECLIPSE MEN RINGING BELL WITH PENISES Western Diamondback   I am also debating slipping a couple imps on. One of our coworkers has 3 imps I'm debating adding 3. Hmm, Maybe I can chuck on a Snake Oil (to see what all the fuss is about/start aging), an Embalming Fluid for Carol, maybe Wolf Heart for both of us and/or a Defutata for me. Yummmm cinnamon notes..... Ok, that is more than 3. I will either need to narrow it down or to-hell-with-it-order-more-than-6. I can hold off on the Lupercalia/Shungas I guess because I do have imps coming of those. Maybe we can get a few imps each order or a pack each order. Since we've got 3 imps already on it's only natural to put another 3 on to make a full pack....     On non-order related BPAL stuffs: I put Western Diamondback on tonight. I'm depressed. Things are getting to me, just personal stuff I don't want to get into it all here. I like the smell of the WDb. It's comforting. Is it the subtle vanilla? I don't know why but it is. I love it and it is definitely staying on the order!   Meh, gonna finish watching Pushing Daisies. Maybe some light humour would be good.
vultureguy

vultureguy

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Diary of a Lovestruck Teenage Cannibal

The NIGHTMARE TERROR of TEENAGE love gone GRISLY! She's HELL-BENT on romance, THRILL-CRAZED, and HUNGRY! There's NO ESCAPE from her clutches!   A deranged darling, sweet and sociopathic! Clotted vanilla cream, pink pepper, grapefruit, blood lily, red ginger, English pear, and lemon-squeezed candyfloss!   Reviewed 02/09/2008   In the bottle: Vanilla cake, a hint of something cherry-ish. Very foody.   Wet: Again, something cherry-ish, but that fades quickly. The grapefruit and lemon are in the forefront, with creamy vanilla swirling underneath.   Drydown: Sparkling, happy citrus. There is a bit of spice to keep it from going into the cleaning product smell. The cream seems to have blended in so well that I can't pick it out as a separate note but there is still a creamy feel. There's a short time when the pear note gives it a hint of play-doh, but thankfully it doesn't stay very long.   The pear in this gave me pause, but I still ordered two bottles unsniffed. I'm glad that I did, because it's fabulous. This is definitely screaming "Hoard me!"
Rovylern

Rovylern

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vultureguy's Blog
 

One of Every Shunga?

I did it. I broke down and ordered at least one decant of every Shunga Salon. At least one. I have 2 of Ebisu Making Love as Two Octopuses Look On, Glowing Vulva & Spell of Amorous Love. That's so I have a couple to give to Aunt Sher & Kelly. I'm putting an order in for this weekend (hey, I can do that tonight!) and will be putting Men Ringing Bells With Penises from the Shunga & Lunar Eclipse from the Lunar on this order for me, Her Voice from the Lupercalia & Cheshire Moon from the Lunar for her. The Lunars are gone after the 22nd. I should chuck a Lupercalia for each of us on this one too maybe since I'll be doing the Shungas more next time. I'll think about it. We've already got 12 bottles since Symone wants 3. Next order I might just do Carol and I and ask Elizabeth if she wants anything.   *thinking*   Editted for thought: I've got a ton of decants coming, maybe I should toss a Lupercalia for each of us on this one 'cause when Carol sees all the bits and bobs I've got on order she might have a small coronary & I'll be under orders to freeze my Paypal
vultureguy

vultureguy

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Argentwolf's Blog
 

Alecto

Category: Excolo   In the imp: Very herbal and 'green'.   Wet: Very strident and medicinal in tone. As time passed, it morphed into a really musty, sour odor; perhaps that's the vetiver? I've never worn anything with vetiver in it before, so I'm hesitant to pass judgement right away, but whichever component was at fault, it was not a very nice smell.   Dry: I was definitely throwing something sour and nasty. Which is a shame, because if I sniffed up close to my skin, I could smell the leafy components of it perfectly, as if I were bending low into a garden and letting the leaves brush my cheeks. If it *all* had ended up smelling like that, I would have liked it a *lot* more, as that particular feeling was lovely.   Verdict: I'm going to have to pass on this one.   What I liked: That leafy scent; I'll try to keep an eye out for scents with olive leaf and see if that evokes a similiar feeling.   What I didn't like: That musty nastiness. I'll have to keep an eye out for vetiver, as well, and see if that was the culprit.
Argentwolf

Argentwolf

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vultureguy's Blog
 

Bad day

Not a good day. Feel like poo because I didn't do something yesterday and I got a bit of shit for it. I'm tired and down. Of all days not a good day for something like that, I feel worse for it. And I've been feeling nostalgic, missing my step mom. At least E called to say Happy Birthday.   We got an order today, it was mostly for everyone else. There was a bottle of Rose Red for her & an imp of Coyote for me. That was nice. I expected it to smell a bit different but it's still nice.   Going to bed now. end to a day
vultureguy

vultureguy

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Forget Everything And Remember
 

Title goes here

I've been having weird dreams. Dreams of betrayal, mostly, like the one where the company of soldiers I was counting on to help me win the battle were asleep when I went to give them the order to move out. Turned out they were enemy soldiers, posing as our side to give us false confidence and think we had a company that the enemy didn't know about.   And I acknowledged my health issues in one of the dreams. I think the two are related. I think I'm feeling betrayed by my body far more than I realize, and moreso as I come to accept that I will never go another day without feeling pain for the majority of it. I will never again be able to push myself and have the consequential achiness and whatnot be proportional to how much I pushed; it will always be twice that.   I will never be who I was, the girl who, despite being out of shape and overweight, could still pull physical exertion out when needed. I will always be the one who needs taking care of, always be the one who needs instead of the one who's needed.   I always thought that I'd have that freedom. I mourn it now.
Kitrona

Kitrona

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heartbreakangel's Blog
 

Well, that was fun while it lasted...

I'm no longer getting married. My relationship with C. as far as that stuff is concerned ended yesterday morning.   After getting her to finally stop pulling the excuse train around, as well as obscuring things to make it seem like she was making an effort, she admitted she hasn't been doing anything like she swore she was to get her back looked at. When I asked why, and chipped away at it until she was straight with me, she said she's so afraid she's going to hear that there's nothing they can do that she'd rather not do anything at all.   Considering this was presented as a problem, as I've said before, that can either lead to her possibly being paralyzed or kill her if it gets worse and nothing is done about it, I wasn't particularly happy with this course of action. I asked why she didn't take my feelings into consideration with it, and got the standard "I guess I didn't think" answer I've come to know so well since I started dating her.   I just...can't do this when I'm staring down an oncoming train of this nature. I explained all of this to her, and let her know that as I'm the one uprooting everything to move to her, I have certain expectations regarding how she handles her ongoing health problems, so that stuff is actually getting done, as opposed to...well...this. It was also made known that I don't think it's so cool that I can't push things off with my health without her getting upset with me, but I'm not supposed to be ruffled when she does it. That's crap.   Then she brought up something her mother said regarding the mere idea of her getting hot stone massage therapy to try to loosen some of the muscles in her back that have been tensed up and causing other problems for her as of late. Something to the tunes of how she's certain C. will never like the massage, and how she knows that it won't do anything to help. I finally came completely unglued and said some things about that woman that I'd never said before, and would have to keep consistently bottled up were I to move up there, due to seeing her on a weekly basis. I can only imagine what she's going to say about me once she gets drunk after finding out we split up for keeps. Should be a fun time when C. regales me with it over the phone at some point. I'll mostly just sit here laughing over it, since it shows a remarkable lack of intestinal fortitude to only sling the insults while drunk, let alone behind my back. Thank God she won't be my mother in law.   So, that's where it stands. I have no idea what I'm going to do with the rings. I haven't taken the engagement one off yet, as I don't have a particularly safe place to keep it at the moment. Worst case scenario, if dad doesn't want me to sell it back to the jeweler we got it from, I'll go up there, have it sized to fit the ring finger on my right hand, and just turn it into basic every day bling. It's too pretty to just stuff in a box somewhere.
heartbreakangel

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vultureguy's Blog
 

Ebay

I thought I'd get my feet wet and put in for some Ebay BPAL from the Lab. LOL, I was outbid within minutes on Nuclear Winter (I was ready to go up to $20, it's almost $38 now). I've got a bid on Trick: Tp'd Tree. I'll see if I get it but it's close already. It would be nice but I don't HAVE to have it.   I do see Bed of Nails which sounds intriguing. It's under my threshold right now but would it stay that way? And I feel bad, 'sneaking in' and putting a bid in to take it away from someone else. How bad is that? Did I just say that I don't want to outbid someone?? That's half the fun, the chess game that is bidding and getting something. But BPAL is different. I don't feel like I'm taking it from some anonymous individual, I feel like I'm taking it away from my best friend. I don't know, maybe I'd feel different if I really wanted a scent, maybe then I'd be more cut throat. Or maybe not.   I am amazed at how high the prototypes have gotten, althought I shouldn't be. I've seen discontinued LEs go for close to $100 so non-released one of a kind prototypes bringing in $180 and $190 is nothing. But it's interesting, 4 prototypes and 2 are going for $50/$60 and 2 for $180/$190. Why? Is it the notes? The name? Or what? Makes me wonder.
vultureguy

vultureguy

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FG's smellies obsession
 

My SwitchWitch FORTYTRICKS!

She "told" me who she was by sending 40 Twix bars! Nice reveal!   And thanks to her I have Ivanushka AND a bottle of Great Sword of War, and decants of the two phoenixes I had coveted, and impies, and Lush bubble bar, and a bunch of Villainess.... and books, and a tarot deck, and socks....just...   For anyone who is wondering, FORTYTRICKS is awesome and she spoiled me stooopid.
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heartbreakangel's Blog
 

*sigh*

I'm pretty sure I caught C. greatly bending and twisting the truth around about health stuff again, and her ability to get ahold of her physician as of last night's before bed conversation.   This vexes me. She's gone right back to old habits she swore she'd broken, etc.   I also had a friend IM me out of the blue tonight to wish me an early happy birthday, and express a lot of concern about what's been going on with all of this. I've known this guy for nine years, and we're both quite alike in a lot of ways with how we handle certain things with relationships. Both of us tend to become blind to certain stuff, until it gets to be completely overwhelming. He's trying his damnedest to make sure I don't wind up in the same spot he's in right now.   Considering my dad came at me with the same stuff, and another friend came at me with similar concerns, and I'm speaking to yet another one right now that thinks all of this is bullshit I shouldn't have to deal with, I'm sort of eyeballing things like .   I needed to hear it, though. I really did. I'm pissed that things are being obscured and jerked around, while I'm having lines fed to me about how stuff's getting better. Nothing is.   Something tells me that this engagement isn't long for the world anymore.
heartbreakangel

heartbreakangel

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heartbreakangel's Blog
 

Uh oh...

I'd mentioned in the How Are You Feeling? thread that I had a long talk with dad over dinner. It was rather...enlightening. In not so good ways, really.   The woman I'm marrying has a host of health problems. Kyphoscoliosis, Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, Fibromyalgia, some problem where her stomach doesn't empty at the right rate so she throws up a ton (it's partly controlled by pills, though not very well), unmedicated an likely improperly diagnosed ADD, post concussion syndrome, memory problems because of the PCS, a potential case of arthritis, migraines, etc.   Mine? Ugh. Migraines, TMJ, Fibromyalgia, undiagnosed and thus unspecified arthritis, bad knees, allergies, asthma, chronic sinusitis, and a few other piddly things that only come around every so often.   Now, back in October, C. was told in no uncertain terms that she needed to get her back looked at, because the bottom curve in her spine, which has a few fused vertebra in it in what was a failed attempt to straighten it out, is reasserting itself. She was advised to see a back surgeon for an assessment ASAP, since the curve reasserting could break the fusion site, and lead to her being paralyzed, as well as causing organ compressions in ways that could kill her.   Yes, she could DIE from this.   She hasn't gotten ahold of anyone. She keeps telling me that she's trying, every day, to get through to her doctor and get this dealt with. Now, I've dealt with her doctor. I know he's a blazing moron. I know he drops the ball a lot. However, I also know it is not this damned hard to get things accomplished if you actually hold his office to what they say, and keep on them. Were she doing this every day like she swears she is, I'd like to think she'd have an appointment with the back surgeon by now. Even if he is down in Toronto, and waiting lists are involved, since she's in Canada.   Dad's of the opinion that C's fallen back into her old pattern of waiting for someone else to get these things done, because it's difficult to do alone, and it's easier to let someone like her parents handle. Or me. Thing is, I'm not up there. And he's stated he's not sending me up there to do it, because he knows how I am when people start throwing boneheaded, illogical excuses at me, much like her doctor tends to. He doesn't want to have to figure out bail money while I'm in a different country, and I can understand that. Nor do I really want to go up there to straighten this crap out. It isn't my job. It's her responsibility. SHE needs to do this. Not me.   But she's not. As always.   The longer the conversation went on, the more I realized that I'm going to be the one doing everything when I move up there after we get married. Cleaning the apartment? That'll be me, because she's always too sick and sore to do much but lay around watching TV all day. Cooking meals? Me. Hoofing laundry to and from the laundry facilities/laundromat? Me. Working to make sure we can cover bills and rent and stuff, as she's on disability and gets maybe $1000 a month? Me. Paying the bills responsibly and on time? Me. Grocery shopping? Me.   I'm sure folks can see where this is going. I'll be doing everything. Th'hell is going to happen if something goes on, I'm in the middle of a flare, and I cannot get out of bed? Nothing will get done. And God forbid an emergency with her goes on if I'm in such a state.   I just...this bothers me. This bothers me a lot. Way more than I thought it would.   She's coming down to visit once her passport application is processed, and she's got it in hand. If dad and I cannot convince her to deal with her own shit like she needs to do, I've got the bad feeling that'll be a permanent nail in the coffin to us getting married. It makes my spine crawl to know that even after repeated conversations and attempts to make her do stuff, it always falls back on me. It shouldn't. I can't live like that. I'm her fiancee, not her frigging mother.
heartbreakangel

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A Way to Help

Here's a way to provide educational opportunities to girls in Africa.   (I am not affiliated with this organization. The founder is a former student of a colleague of mine.)     Malawi is the "Warm Heart of Africa." Won't you warm someone's heart this   Valentine's Day?   The Advancement of Girls' Education Scholarship Fund (AGE) is offering a different way to show your love to someone this February 14th.   Purchase a small gift box for $20 or more and support a girl's education in Malawi. A beautiful gift box will be sent to the recipient of your choice with information about AGE, a photo of an AGE Scholar, and a small, sweet surprise inside.   Give a gift with meaning...empower a girl through education.     All orders and payments must be received by 5:00PM EST on February 8, 2008 to ensure delivery within the US by February 14th. Please complete the attached order form and e-mail it to Katrina Sison at Katrina.Sison@tufts.edu. All payments must be completed on the AGE website (http://www.ageafrica.org/contact) through PayPal. Because of the short turn around, we are unable to accept checks for this Valentine's Day campaign.     1 box: Minimum donation of $20 2 boxes: Minimum donation of $35 3 boxes: Minimum donation of $50     (All pricing includes shipping and handling for deliveries within the US.)   PURCHASED BY: Name: Email: Address Phone:   Total Number Gift Boxes Ordered   Total Contributions Submitted via Paypal $   Date of PayPal Transaction     (PROVIDE SHIPPING INFORMATION ON PAGE 2)     SHIPPING INFORMATION   Box #1 Recipient Name: Email: Address: Phone: Personal Message:   Box #2 Recipient Name: Email: Address: Phone: Personal Message:     Box #3 Recipient Name: Email: Address: Phone: Personal Message:       Zikomo! (Thank you!)
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