So this is my first blog here... anyone who may read, hello!

I'm used to keeping a Livejournal, and a Myspace. I refuse to participate on Facebook, though.

I suppose I'll keep this to be mainly about my BPAL experiences, with only slight nods to general stuff.

So far, I've only been a member of this forum for a few weeks. I have to say I am really impressed! Everyone here seems so kind. It is amazing to me that all you have to do is post or PM, and people will kindly sell you something you are wanting.

Except Boomslang; no one seems to want to imp that one, LOL! That's okay, I guess I will wait for my Pell grant refund next month and order a bottle. If it does not work for me, I am sure I can find someone who would give it a good home. I'm just so curious what all the fuss is about! But I am really amazed at the kindness here at this forum. The Lab should be proud to have such a wonderful group of people following.

So of the about 30 scents I own at the moment, I'm in love with about 8. I have 10 more still coming in the mail from forumites, and an imp pack on order with the Lab, and about 30 more on the wishlist. What is still coming yet is: 3 weenies, 2 LEs, 4 GC's and 1 vampire scent. Right now my top favorite scents are VOODOO and HECATE. Soooo in love with those.

Since I have been here, I've discovered that the orange blossom note does bad things on me. That has to be the problem, since it is in all the scents that are epic fails on me. The Big Bads have been Monarch, The Black Tower and Vixen/Love Me/Jezebel. (I lump those three together because they all do the same nasty thing on me).

I'm terribly curious about Shub Niggurath, because I am wondering how much like Origins ginger it is? I guess I'll find out soon enough.

I have to admit that I am not that keen on the collecting aspect as far as getting all these old, obscure LE's. There's nothing wrong with that, it's just that being a single mom with limited funds, and getting into it so late, I would rather look to the future. There is just two of them I cannot get from the lab anymore, that I was so seduced by the descriptions of that I must try.But rather than worry about Pink Snowballs from 2006 or something, I am really looking forward to The Last Unicorn and the Midnight Carnival, for example. Let alone this year's Yules.

So now the full moon has multiple meanings to me; 1. the Lunacy update from the lab, 2. Craziness at work, and 3. Meditations. One thing I am really liking about this place is that there is a high Pagan population. It is really reminding me of ways I used to be, of feelings I used to have. I am hoping that being here can influence me to be the person I want to be. I've gotten so cynical the last several years of my life. I would really like to get in touch with feelings about the old ways again. Gods knows this world needs more love in it. I really want to be a part of it, but find myself constantly trying to learn how.

I can't help but feel the last several months that something has been really wrong with me. Probably depression trying to weasel it's way onto me. Coming here and coveting scents and looking forward to new ones gives me a fun distraction. I appreciate it. (Besides pondering "Where is Chloe Sullivan?""What is Sophie's real name?""Who is Gaby's real daughter?""Why does Christine think she's dead?""When will Lily get pregnant?" and of course, "How long til Peter figures out that's not his Olivia?"