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The last stages of burnout.

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he exam is on wednesday. I am barreling full speed ahead towards it. Today I am at work (8 hours of distraction intended to save my sanity.) Tommorrow I'm home studying all day.

 

Overthe weekend, I spent each morning taking a 4 hour timed practice exam (Last May's test saturday morning, and last November's on sunday) Then the afternoons/evenings were spent working problems in areas I was weak on. Tonight, I will be doing more of the same. Tommorrow is the last all-day push to make sure I have firmly memorized everything that needs memorization. No theory, just drilling myself over and over on all of the equations.

 

So yeah, I am barreling headlong towards burnout. It's a race against the clock at this point. I am already looking up chiropracters to make an apointment for next week to try and undo some of the damage from spending 2 months hunched over a desk. This morning, I woke up with such a pain in my neck that I had to pick my perfume this morning that wouldn't conflict with the smell of the IcyHot I had rubbed into the entier back of my neck and shoulders. I went with Lick It. It definately smoother out the sharpness of the menthol in the IcyHot. There's a layering combination you don't hear about often.

 

And my parents are coming into town on Friday. The apartment is in shambles, so wednesday after the exam, I will be cleaning like *mad*. Actually, I suspect it won't be that bad. I'm planning on getting a handful of big rubbermaid containers to pack up with winter clothing, spare bedding, etc. and put on the top shelves in the closets. I don't think the problem is so much mess as this apartment has kinda crappy closets, so storage has been a problem. Once I organize that, I think the rest of it will just be vacuuming, laundry and a little thoughtful aranging. Which isn't nothing, but it's not insurmountable.

 

Rusty was supposed to be cleaning house this weekend, but #1) his standards of what constitutes "clean" are a lot lower than mine, and #2) he hasn't developed that skill of breaking down big tasks into smaller, manageable components, so to him it *does* seem insurmountable. It's irritating, but I've pretty much given up on the idea that he will ever wake up in the morning with a burning desire to keep the house clean and organized.

 

I'll be putting off planting the balcony garden until the weekend, since there won't be time for both cleaning and planting on wednesday.

 

So this is what burnout looks like : mild panic, physical pain, and distracting myself in daydreams of cleaning house. Wow - so miserable, yet so banal.

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Good luck on Wednesday!!!! I'm sure the adreneline will kick in and your brain will bust right past all the burn-out when test time arrives. Again, I'm pulling for you.

 

You have been working your butt off and you should give yourself a well-deserved reward once all the studying, test-taking and apartment cleaning are finished. At the very least, spend some quiet time with your micro roses and your Rusty...

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Thanks for the well wishes. It's less than 24 hours away at this point. I'm kind-of anxious, but I know I've done everything I could.

 

Hopefully soon my roses will bloom and I'll be able to post pictures. :wub2:

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Now I've got The Ramones going through my head. Again.

 

Good luck! You've been studying very thoroughly (more than hard, more than dilligently) and have absorbed more maths and formulae than I could possibly fathom.

 

Like planning for a wedding, this is all momentum at this point. You've done all the preparing you can do and there's no need for last minute cramming (or, you know, midnight tulle runs if I'm keeping with my shakey metaphor).

 

Try to give yourself some mini-breaks after the exam. I know you have a whole slew of things to do before your parents get there, but a frazzled, possibly stress-sick antimony would be worse than a dusty picture frame.

 

Again, good luck!

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