I think I feel like that sometimes. It's not at all that I don't love my husband, but, well, we've been together over seven years and things aren't exactly fresh and new between us. I miss that feeling of new love. Or meeting someone and feeling an instant connection. I'm sure I felt like that with my husband at one point, but I kind of don't remember it anymore.

Is that sort of like what you're describing?

I think I feel like that sometimes. It's not at all that I don't love my husband, but, well, we've been together over seven years and things aren't exactly fresh and new between us. I miss that feeling of new love. Or meeting someone and feeling an instant connection. I'm sure I felt like that with my husband at one point, but I kind of don't remember it anymore.

 

Is that sort of like what you're describing?

No- I'm still pretty giddy-in-love with my husband right now, but the first person I fell in actual love with really messed with my head, and I feel like it took something away from me, something innocent, maybe? I feel like I don't love as well as I did, like I'm more wary at some level. There's a guard that was never there. Either that, or my heart never did get fixed right.

So I guess what I'm describing is worse, because it's about an actual person, and not a nebulous ideal, if that makes sense?