I know this is not related to bpal at all but if anyone reads this, I need advice! So there's this boy....haha I sound like I'm in High School again! Anyway, we work together at JC Penney; but we do such different things that we never see each other. Let's call him L. I knew him from before JCP because I also work for a college where he was a student until very recently. I just recently took the job at JCP for some extra money. Naturally I wasn't allowed to pursue anything until he graduated but I've had a tiny crush on him for awhile now. My best friend also works there. My best friend is on a mission to hook us up and she's very persistant, she sees him often since their departments are right next door. Now I don't know the specifics but apparently the question of his manliness came up; he works in the salon so it happens quite often, and in defense he said a few things about his moves and how great of kisser he was and some girl that worked there verified. A lot of this was joking around, though he was being a bit of a pig. I think my friend called him on it because then he said that there was one girl that he knew before she worked there (JC Penneys) that he really respected. My best friend asked him if it was me and he said 'maybe'. So what, if anything, does that mean? Respect me? Like a sister or a friend? Of course, we don't even know if he was talking about me. I don't know everyone that works there. But by saying 'maybe' it implies that it is me. If it wasn't, surely he would have said no.....right? My friend "knows" that he was talking about me and is of the opinion that he was saying he's interested in more than having a fling with me. So what is he looking for then, a relationship? He hasn't even asked me out yet! And he doesn't seem like the shy type.

The worst part is that I'm a hopeless wreck when it comes to flirting. I get nervous and stupid and can't conjure up complete sentences to save my life. And if he really is interested, he's just as bad. Once we are together and actually talking, we're fine but what leads up to that is usually a lot of comedic error. I'd ask him out myself but see above. It would probably end badly.

I don't care what anyone says, ze boys ze make no sense.