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Antaria

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I've never been very selfconfident about my looks - but now I really want to hide myself. :)

 

For about 6 weeks I have an inflammation right beside my eye. Sometimes its so pale that you almost won't recognize it - and sometimes - like now - it's 4cm in diameter, cherry-red, hurts and is the first thing you see when you look into my face.

 

Well, and the doctors says that it will last at least another 6 weeks. I hate it. I think I should remain at home. Even scents which let me feel sexy (like Hymn) won't help - I just feel ugly (well I know I am) and I hate it how people look at me. For example my boss - everytime he's next to me he stares at it, asks questions and has an repelled expression on his face.

 

My sweetheart says no longer "no you don't look ugly" - by now he says "I don't care as long as you are mine" - that's sweet - but sometimes I wish he'd lie again and tell me "no no, thats not that bad, don't think about it".

 

*sighs*

 

If it only would go away again ... well ... now, not in 6 weeks. And please: Never come back again!!

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The doctors think it will go away spontaneously in another six weeks? Is it an allergic reaction to something?

 

An inflammation 4cm wide that lasts for 3 months seems like it would be something serious to me, which is why I'm concerned for you.

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aww-i hope the doc is wrong,and it sponaneously goes away- Many decades ago,(before the prom) I once had a tiny tiny zit that erupted into something on the center of my forehead that had to be eh"concealed"with some green "primer"and basically took forever to get away-I can still "see" it in my mind-not pretty

 

and then once upon a time, a flatmate "beautified" me with a relaxing mask that left a scabby thing so gross I wanted to wrap a scrf around my forehead!;)

 

So-um-do you know if you have an allergy to a specific ingredient?Anyway, I hope it fades quickly and causes you no more grief!

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