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designer dogs

A quick blog entry before I begin my exam studying/project finishing/essay writing in earnest.   ----------------- I confess that I've been really judgemental towards one of my close friends lately. Of course I never said anything to her face but I certainly thought it and I've ranted to the bf about it. You see, my friend recently dropped $860 (!!!) on one of those "designer dogs" that seem to be a trend now (ugh.) She bought her from some breeder in Delaware. First of all, I'm totally not down with designer dogs, cats, etc. even though I know that some pure breeds are in a way, designer. I just think that there are so many animals that need a home already, and once certain types of people (I don't think my friend is this type though) realize that caring for an animal requires time, patience (and the willingness to scoop poop), love, and yes, money (for vets, and shots) that these poor animals will end up at the shelter.   Of course, I know I shouldn't be judging her becuase it's her money after all, and she can afford it. She also has a bunch of other pets that she cares for very well. I dunno, I guess these thoughts reared their ugly heads Saturday afternoon when the bf and I stopped by PetSmart to buy cat food and toys. They had a bunch of animals there that needed homes, and were up for adoption. We met two Welsh Corgis one of which recently had back surgery so her two back paws were still not functioning as they should be. There was also a mini pinscher that had been rescued from a puppy mill and a bunch of cats and kittens. I was particularly smitten with "Erin" who was an adorable 6 month old calico. So cute I wish I could have taken in another pet but the cat I have now is most definitely more comfortable being an only. I made a donation but I still think of those cats and dogs. I hope they're going to good homes soon. I got my own cat 7 years ago from a woman who found him as a kitten, in a paper bag in the dumpster. She heard him mewling and actually thought he was a baby that had been left in there. Ugh, some people disgust me   Oooh! There was also this Great Dane that was someone's pet. I looove Great Danes so it was so awesome to see and pet one. He was lovely. Times like this I wish I just had a huge house filled with animals.

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CnS Squeeing, Dragon Moon update etc.

I got my CnS today! Yaaaaayyy!!! As posted in the CnS thread, I ordered:   Peony Moon 5ml Embalming Fluid 5ml   Imp Pack: Dirty, Death on a Pale Horse, O, Danube, White Rabbit, The Hamptons.   Can't wait to try Peony Moon and O (mmm, naughtyness!) And of course, I'd like to have more Embalming Fluid. My poor imp is dead. I think I 'd it to death. There's no oil left (none, I tried, trust me) and 90% of the label has torn off. All that's left is an oil stained remnant that reads "EMB FLU". Unfortunately, it is not the cure for the flu unless smelling like deliciousness is a cure (and on this forum, who knows??). ********** Dragon Moon:The Dragon Moon celebrates the glory and vigor of Springtime: dragon’s blood resin, tea leaf, bamboo reed, sandalwood and cherry blossom. Huh, luckily for my credit card, I'll have to pass on this one. Dragon's blood resin turns weird and syrupy on me and gives me a headache. No thank you.   Midway: A bombardment of edible carnival indulgences. Funnel cake, caramel apple, cotton candy, salt water taffy and sugar tart. I think I read on the reviews that this smelled like pink cotton candy and on another like too much buttery caramel. I'd go for the cotton candy. Maybe. Snake Charmer: Sensual, sibilant, sexual and hypnotic: Arabian musk and exotic spices slinking through Egyptian amber, enticing vanilla, and a serpentine blend of black plum, labdanum, ambrette, benzoin and black coconut. I've been wanting to expand my horizons with some spicey, amber scents. Plus, coconut and vanilla?! I'm in! Wantwantwant.   Also, imps of Tweedledee, Tweedledum, Eat Me ("What are you wearing?" "Eat Me!!"), Mouse's Long and Sad Tale, Euterpe, and Sin.   Okay, so maybe my credit card didn't get off too easily after all.

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Carnaval Diabloque, etc.

Eeee! The Carnaval is here! What a pleasant surprise that it went up early too, even if a small part of me wanted to stay up with everyone on the Update thread and have a BPAL slumber party. (If someone teaches me how to French-braid my hair, I'll weave them a friendship bracelet! And shhh! be quiet or my mom will hear us and make us all go to bed!) I waited a couple days to make my order so that my endorphins would die down and I wouldn't say ....buy the entire CD set (which would be lovely except for that part about my bank account spontaneously combusting). Here's what I recently ordered:   Mme. Moriarty: Misfortune Teller-5mL-$20   Antique Lace-5mL-$15   Imp Pack-$19.50 Les Bijoux Cockaigne Sherezade Carnal Eat Me Vecheryaya   Total +shipping = $63.00 USD Which isn't bad, no?   I've found out thanks to BPAL, that I'm able to prune down all of my online orders so I only get "essentials", hooray!   I also made an order today because today was my very last day at work and it was a pick me up/reward. Despite my occasional posts in the Jobs Rant thread, I really did love my job. I liked 99% of the people there, including my awesome supervisor. Another reason I'm feeling sad about leaving is that the job market is pretty icky right now. I have friends who are still working their "transition job" not a job in their chosen profession. I was lucky enough to find a good job, with a decent pay and great people and I'm leaving it Also, I'm kind of scared of going to school hours and hours away from my hometown and my friends. I don't make friends easily (I'm painfully shy) and I can't imagine spending 2+ years doing stressful course/research work without some friends around.   At least my apartment situation seems to be sorting itself out. They've changed property owners/managers to the company that managed my suites in undergrad. Now, my quad suite in undergrad was pretty damn awesome. They were clean, well constructed, heat/AC problemless, and included washer/dryers in the unit. My apartment complex, the way it was before new management (and according to reviews on apartment.com was "sketchy", "gross", "loud" and included some visitors that went by names of "roaches", "mice", "spiders" and "silverfish". Hopefully, with new people they'll clean the f-ing place up. I've been stressing out about the supposedly sketchy environment since forever. The only reason I signed the lease was because it was literally right across the street from school. I'm going up tomorrow to get my keys and move some stuff in. I reeeally hate bugs and if I do see roaches, spiders or silverfish I will be very very angry. ------- On a lighter note, my boy is coming over tonight to watch our new addiction: Numb3rs on DVD . Also, I will secretly swipe him with Bluebeard to see if it will smell yummy on a boy. Drive-by BPAL swiping! Whee! I already know he absolutely loves Antique Lace on me. He says it smells "happy and yummy". If I layer anything else with it, he will have none of it. The one time I tried layering it with Peony Moon he picked up on it right away "Mmmm, it's Antique Lace!....and something else that's not Antique Lace...::sad face::"

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BPAL Locket!

My BPAL locket came! Yaaay! I had to wait a few days to wear it, 'cause I wanted to buy ribbon for it. I think I'll wear it out for my date this weekend with the bf. We're going to go see 300       Admittedly, I didn't put anything in my locket today. At first I used a bit of cotton with Antique Lace, but......it's not pretty enough! The cotton bits poked through. I read in the Trading Post thread that someone used a bit of velvet, or cloth so I think I'm gonna do that. I just need to find a fabric store and cheap fabric.   What do you use?

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Cillian Murphy...

...is someone I'd like to do all sorts of naughty things to. There's a couple scenes in 28 Days Later where he looks like my bf and *purrrr*   And I'd share my last tube of MAC lipstick with Robert Smith. Sometimes, hearing "Just Like Heaven" randomly come on the radio makes me so happy I smile like a crazy person when I'm in my car. I also sing along--loudly and off-key.

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Apartment Wishlist

Saw the apartment today. It looked okay. It was definitely in a convenient location but the place itself is kinda small. There are only two "official" bedrooms and one of them has no windows (wtf??!!) and the other one is the master bedroom and is already occupied. That left me with the windowless wonder (aka "The Cell") and the other "room" which was a very well partitioned off area of the living room. ::Sigh:: dissapointing, but I guess I'll take it, for the price, free cable, gym on premesis and location. Therefore, I need a new bed and a new desk, everything else (chair, bookcase, bedside table, lamps etc.) I already have.   I want: This Desk and This Lovely Bed Frame Maybe this chest/drawers and a(nother) bookcase. I'm getting tired of looking. Now I'm sad 'cause I don't really like the place all that much. I've been spoiled with the sweet apartment I've lived in during undergrad, I guess. This? is nothin' like that. aargh. *********** Registered for classes and it was pretty funny watching my advisor try to find a class that I haven't already taken in undergrad. Basically, I settled on Molecular Biology and Immunology for this fall. Both of which I've taken before, just not this in depth. Scared and excited. It was hell trying to navigate the website. My sheet of directions tell me to click on links that are no longer there, so that was oh-so fun. ********* Campus was beautiful and very different from where I went to school. It's a bit smaller to be sure (one of the reasons I was drawn to this school) but it has lots of greenery and wooded areas that would've been sectioned off for development in a nanosecond at other places. ********* I'm super-tired. Woke up early today, drove hours and hours, then walked and walked and did it all over again. Can't wait for sleep tonight. And tomorrow I get to wake up to a Friday! Whooo, TGIF in advance, to everyone!

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Random Thought

"Here Comes Your Man" by the Pixies must be one of the most cheerful songs ever to me.   A nuclear holocaust could be happening right outside my window, but if I hear this song it'll immediately be puppies and rainbows.   How did I find this out? I'm having a bad day (deciding whether or not to drop a class for which I will get *no refund/or anything back* bye bye $800, it's cold, wet, snowy, and we're all being unexpectedly kicked out of our apartments at the end of May), and this song comes on iTunes and for 3min13seconds life is okay.

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BPAL, work, whineyness, and cake

I'm scared of Death on a Pale Horse! Description from Lab: The End of All Things: empty white musk and mint seeped with solemn lavender, doleful patchouli and vetiver, scythe-sharp yuzu and lime, with geranium bourbon, white sandalwood and calla lily.   Lavender makes me go "yeugh", and I'm kinda scared of sandalwood. I've read it as being "herbally and lavender" which reminds me of this Burt's Bees handcreme that goes bad on my skin (for some reason it smells like bleach and old vase-water when it dries. ew) However, if the white musk, lime and maybe lilies cooperate with the others it won't be too bad? I wanted to order something "out there" that I would have never thought of trying but now I want an imp of Euterpe. Mmmm, lemonade . Mostly though, I want my imps and Peony moon! cantwaitcantwait *********** At work there was a big-ass bug in the hall. I didn't get close enough to figure out what it was but it looked kinda spider-y. *shudder* So, in typical girl fashion, my coworkers and I spent a while shrieking as it moved (skittered) around and proclaimed that we were not going near it, much less get close enough to kill it. Eventually some guy did (we don't know who, we never saw) and left the body lying there in the hall. Scary-ness, yo. ********** Whiney Section (and yes, I would like some cheese with that!) I'm so jealous of friends or random people who I've never even met! Everyone with a nice job they love that pays well, everyone who's beautiful, everyone who's going to a good school, or is super-smart, or has a big loving family, or has time to travel/backpack throughout Europe, I am jealous! **turns into green-eyed monster** grrr, arrgh! ******** After reading the description of one of the Monster Baits, I could really go for some yummy coconut cake. (I love bunnies!)

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Campus Visit, BPAL, The Omen etc.

So tomorrow I go to visit the campus of my grad school. I have an apartment viewing at 11, advisor meeting at 1, and campus tour at 2. Logic would have dictated that the campus tour should've been scheduled first so I would know where to meet my advisor and see my apartment building but scheduling with this particular tour guide was kinda difficult, since he has stuff going on that day and wants to get home early to take care of his sick daughter. I am kinda excited and aprehensive at the same time.   Apartment Viewing: The campus made a deal with a hotel chain so it is renting out several floors to graduate and international students. Which means that although the apartment is technically off-campus, it very close (across the street) and high speed internet and cable is through campus. Whoo! Also, the price is amazing. It would cost $900-1000 in the area I live now to get either a crappy one bedroom in a sketchy area or a studio. I will be paying much, much, less. I am viewing the "master" bedroom. Rock. And the girl who I talked to who will potentially be my roomate sounded really nice. She's getting her master's in physical therapy, very cool.   Advisor meeting: I'm still kinda scared about this because I have images in my head of the worst case scenario which would be the advisor laughing at me and telling me I wasn't accepted after all. Argh. Though it probably will just involve reiterating the rules of the program (3.0GPA or above to graduate, no C's allowed), and picking out some classes for fall. Ah, it kinda feels good to be picking out classes and buying books again after (only) a year of working out in the "real world". I will miss my lovely steady paychecks and most of the people I work with. Also a friend once said to me, the best part about working vs. School is that after you come home from work, you're technically off the clock and there's no extra work like projects or studying to be done. Ahhhh, that *is* nice.   Campus Tour: Looking forward to this, the campus looked really nice on the website/brochure. I went to a fairly large college for undergrad and that took a lot of getting used to. I'm glad I'm going to a smaller place for grad. ******************* I was going to make an order this month but I didn't really think Lotus Moon would work for me. I'm afraid of Soap!Lotus and Evil!Rose which happens to be one of the scents that my skin amps like crazy. Maybe next month? Is next month Hungry Ghost Moon? Either way, I want new smellies before I go away for fall!   Also, I was heartbroken when O turned to a sweet soapy concoction on my skin. Dammit, I wanted to smell like sex too! I left it for about 2 months and either I'm starting to get used to it, or it has morphed a little, but I don't find it so icky anymore. Death on a Pale Horse, despite the coolest name ever, was too masculine for me. I do love The Hamptons and Swank though. Man, I must smell like a lush! ************** Has anyone ever seen the Japanese trailer for The Omen? I did, and when the priest says "his coming has heralded the Apocalypse" or something similar the trailer goes through a montage of sorts of all these disasters. Fire, flood, etc. Anyways, I thought I saw a flash of, get this, two very tall buildings in a large city with smoke coming out of them. Yep, the Twin Towers. I thought I was seeing things, but then I rewound my downloaded trailer and yep, there they were. WTF?! Are we blaming 9/11 on Damien now?! Ugh. I was disgusted that they even brought it up in that way. I saw another trailer today on TV and for a similar part, they showed a clip of the Asian tsunami. You know, that footage that's taken from the balcony of a hotel in Thailand and then this huge wave comes crashing into the patio/pool area. Again, ugh. ********** On a lighter note, I'm listening to the Firefly soundtrack. It makes me happy, especially theme song which I used to sing as "Take my love, take my land, something something cue the fiddle" Rawr, for Simon Tam.

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Random Thought Part II

Random Thoughts Part II     * I'm really excited for the Silent Hill movie to come out. Lately, the boy has been playing through 1, 3 and is on 2 so I can have a feel of the plot and atmosphere etc. I love it so far.   I am not playing because I've proven myself incompetent after getting killed by ZombieNurses, was ran off a rollercoaster track (and died), got myself stuck in a room with rotting walls (and died), and fell into an endless hole never to be seen again (ie: died) among other things. So after that I handed the controller to the bf. I still wish I could fill a bag with bacon/meat and thwap Bosses on the head with it, though. There must be something I could use em for besides distracting monsters.   The Whiney and Mopey Edition *I think I'm going to a rough patch in my life. Actually I know I am. I am currently at a job I really like in my field except I hate one of my coworkers soooo much and it's a pretty small office so it's hard to ignore her. The pay is pretty bad, and the cost of living pay increase we got last year is not helping at all. Rent is sky-high in this area and if you wanna live in a place that you'd feel pretty safe in you'd have to give up an arm and a leg and perhaps your firstborn (you know, for the utilities ) Basically, I wanna get the ^*&(* outta my parents house and the crazyness that usually forms between us. After being at college for four years and left to my own devices I've learned that distance does make the heart grow fonder. --I'm applying to grad school and the stress of waiting/not knowing/expecting rejection is killing me. --Sometimes I think my bf doesn't give a damn about me even though I know that's a crazy thought and it's not true. I'm just feeling not confident about anything right now, and I'd like to be someone else for awhile.   If you've made it this far, thanks for being interested or bored enough. Here, have a cyber-

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Cherry Blossoms in DC, Bath & Body Works

Went to see the cherry blossoms today. I don't exactly know why we go each year when we have a friggin cherry blossom tree in our front yard. I tried to convince my parents that going sometime other than opening weekend and taking the metro would be easier as we wouldn't have to deal with crappy District parking, but my dad insisted on driving. So he did. Ugggghhhh. 40 minutes to drive into DC and another 50 to find a parking space. That 50 minutes were spent driving at around 15 miles per hour and stopping to let the pedestrians cross where there weren't any crosswalks. Bastards. I hope some of them realize the only reason they didn't get yelled at was because they had a &*(^&ing stroller with them Other (DC) motorists weren't as nice. As you can tell, I haaaate large crowds. Also, when the sign by the WWII memorial fountain says Please Respect the Memorial by Not Wading In It and Not Throwing Coins, I think it means Please Respect the Memorial by Not Wading In It and Not Throwing Coins. Aside from the frustrations mentioned above, the trip was pretty good. The weather cooperated and was a beautiful, sunny 65 degrees, and we had a picnic lunch under the shade of a cherry blossom tree. Drove through Georgetown while I fantasized about doing damage to my credit card and the parents and I didn't fight. Not once. Victory! **************** Awhile ago, I think Bath and BW had some sort of buy three things for $25 deal I, on a whim decided to buy the antibacterial soap in Ginger and White Tea (or something). I am very happy I did. It smells like Embalming Fluid when it's still in the bottle. Happyhappyjoyjoy. **************** As much I despise Dave Matthews Band, I have to say that their collaberation with Ben & Jerry's ice cream yields some of the yummiest B & J's ever. One Sweet Whirled is one of my favorites but Magic Brownies (vanilla ice cream swirled with raspberry and brownie bits) is slowly but surely edging it out.

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Keyboards, etc.

Ah, computers. They never fail to freak me the F&*! out when something goes wrong. So, at work today, my screen randomly freezes after "automatic updates" and re-starting. I try starting up again in safe mode, but still, Frozen Screen of Doom. I try again with safe mode, resolving to pick off the little F8 button and soak it in a beaker of hydrochloric acid if nothing else happens . Then, the screen reveals that I have a "keyboard failure". Instead of putting in a request for a new keyboard and having the tech guy come all the way out to check on my computer-related ineptitude, I take the computer's word for it. Okay, fine, maybe I somehow made the keyboard implode. Conveniently, a coworker quit a month ago. A replacement has yet to be hired, so her computer is sitting all by itself, not being used. Same with her keyboard   I switched out the keyboard and plugged in hers and it worked! Yay! But here is where my real problem starts. My ex-coworker was great, bless her, but her keyboard was positively filthy. Apparently, she liked to put on makeup at work. Specifically, foundation and powder. She rarely washed her hands after this, so all the keys had this flesh colored greasy/filmy stuff all over. Ew. When I type the last thing I wanna feel under my fingers is your Clinique Matte Foundation in Ivory. Also, she liked to eat at her desk a lot. So, when I shook out the keyboard I literally had a small pile's worth of various crumbs. Double Ew. And I still haven't gotten most of it out. They seem to be stuck in there. I took some Lysol and sprayed it on a paper towel to get most of the icky-ness off of the keys but there's still various bits of food and foil (?!) that I can see lurking and mocking me . So, yeah, I'm gonna put in a request to get another keyboard... because I'm leaving this August and I don't want the new hire to think that I left behind a snack bar and the makeup counter at Bloomingdale's. ----------------------- Another work tale from today (geez, it sure was eventful. At least as eventful as a day at the lab/office can be). I got in early, start working then I start to feel awful. I got tired, nauseated, dizzy, weak, and my head hurt like hell. I had to sit at my desk with my head down for 45 minutes. A coworker told me to go get something to eat (we work less than 5 minutes away from Starbucks thank goodness). I couldn't even will myself to get up at first. Finally, I sucked it up and just went for a Starbucks run. The thought of coffee, for some reason, actually made me feel even more gross so I got a green tea latte and a plain bagel.   Once I was at my desk, and I took a couple sips of the latte (not impressed, btw) and ate some of my bagel, I felt a whoooollle lot better. Turns out my stomach was just trying to tell me I was hungry. The thing is I wasn't even hungry! But my stomach was, I guess. Anyone else get that? The feeling that you don't wanna eat/you're not hungry but your tummy is telling your brain something completely different? Grr. Also turns out that I took my BCP waay late yesterday and hadn't eaten anything for about 13 hours. Those two combined probably was probably what made me feel like crap. Silly me. So tonight, I had dinner and am going to go to bed early. I can't watch Project Runway otherwise I'll never get to sleep (too much left over adrenaline from the show, lol).Ah, well. I'll just catch it on one the bajillion occasions Bravo reruns it. Based on yesterday's show I'm rooting for Katherine/Kathleen/Snowboarder girl or whatever her name is. for Tim Gunn!

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Confession Post + teeny updates

I confess that I love a certain band but I don't like most of their fans.   I confess that I lose respect for certain celebrities/artists/whatevers when they start dating supermodels. Who wants some chick whose only job in life is to look "pretty", stay thin and not talk when you could have a supercool artist, scientist, teacher, businesswoman, archeologist, etc. for a girlfriend?! Bonus: there's a pretty good chance she won't boink you on the head with a cell phone either ....I love that line from 13 Going on 30: "Oh, honey, those aren't people those are models!"   I confess I was tempted to turn my "roomate wanted" ad into a "friend wanted" ad.   I confess that now that I can confidently load podcasts onto my iPod, I've gone nuts. Now I have a weird collection of 'em in my iPod. Style.com fashion shows, Tim Gunn's ( ) Project Runway, Paris travel, NPR books, National Geographic, science-y ones, and a geeky podcast (yay, comicbooks!).   I confess that I'm thinking about not going to my 5 year high school reunion this November if I don't get down to my ideal weight. ----------- teeny updates:   -Found more furniture for the apartment (thanks to cheap stuff from Ikea and Wal-Mart). Got my desk, my "entertainment center", two floor lamps, a bunch of accent rugs, a dining set, extra plates, some pens and highlighters for about $180.   -Two people have called about the apartment so far; a guy, and a freshman girl. I don't feel comfortable living with a guy and I have no idea why the girl called. The university guarantees housing for all incoming freshmen...so..maybe she was on the waiting list? I'll give her the room if no one else calls, but I don't think I wanna live with someone that young since our lifestyles will be pretty different. I'm meeting her this Saturday to show her the apartment.   -I'm starting to stress out about my gajillion doctor's apointments this month. Argh. And moving all of my crap in. And driving (I haaate driving) far away.   -I think I've lost a bit of weight since I'm not working anymore. Makes sense since I'm not running around the lab and overeating when I finally get to sit in the office. I just eat when I'm hungry which ends up being about once or twice a day. But I still want some spicy tuna rolls!   ETA: another update: someone else just contacted me for the apartment and one of the first things she wrote was about how she thought the price was too high. Well, hell, the two bedroom is $1145 not including utilities and the wireless internet, so yeah, I'll be charging around $600 to cover all that. Sheesh. > I can think of better ways to make money than to cheat pennyless grad students!

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HGM, etc.

Hungry Ghost Moon-looks amazing and was all I would hope it would be. After reading the description I now want some ginger candy....So in addition to a 5mL of HGM, I ordered a pack of imps. The imps I ordered were Vixen, Sin, Katharina, Lolita, Antique Lace, and Euterpe. Hooray! Now, I'll just settle in and wait for my package to arrive. -------------------- Apartment Update: The place that I wrote about before is now not happening. Despite assurances that the place has "an extremely good chance" of going to me and a promise to call me later in the week, the girl did not call me back. Or returned my phone call and e-mail to her. I was angry at first, I mean, she is 26 and should know that when you promise to call someone to tell them whether or not they have the place you should call at the very least to tell them that unfortunately they won't have the place blahblahblah. Not keep them waiting in a weird limbo stage that could've been spent looking for another place to live had they known. Show some responsibility!   But whatever. I now have another place that is just as close to school and will be significantly less expensive once I get an apartment-mate. They'd get the huuuuuge (20 x 15) master bedroom and I'd get the smaller one. Mostly 'cause I dunno what to do with all that space. The issue of furniture remains as I have very very little of it since I live with the 'rents still. I need: -Sofa -Chairs -Coffee table -Bed frame -Mattress -Desk -Dresser -Rug -Lamps And I'm planning on going to CostCo, Ikea, Sticks N' Stuff for cheapies. I'm just dreading how I'm gonna transport everything there. ------------------------- I was gonna write about something else going on but I'm outta energy. Tomorrow! G'night!

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Feeling Accomplished (for once!)

Ah, Sundays. I always have a love/hate relationship with Sundays. On the one hand they always signal the end of the weekend but on the other I love Sundays because usually I just lie around in my pajama pants reading the newspaper, drinking tea and eating things that are bad for me.   Today, I (kind of) did just that *and* I managed to get some much needed work done. The boy spent the weekend at my place so today we had most of the afternoon together before he drove down back to his place. We finally went to Rita's. All you East Coast-ers know what I'm talkin' about. For everyone else, they sell delicious icees, ice cream, cream-ice and "gelatis". They're only open during the warmer seasons and we were lucky enough to catch them for the very first time today. It also happened to be their last day open until March 1st. The boy got a banana gelati, while I got a cookies and cream gelati. Their gelatis were...interesting....but very good. A Rita's gelati consists of a layer of frozen custard on the bottom of the cup, a layer of flavored ice in the middle, and a topping of more frozen custard on top. Mmmm.   Well, after we went to Rita's we got lunch which allowed the gelatis to melt and mix in the cups in the car. I went to a Halloween party store where we discussed our costumes. He still has no idea what he wants to be, but he's seeming very excited to go as Vincent from Pulp Fiction 'cause I hinted that it would be cool to go as Mia and Vincent. Also a plus, a Mia outfit would be super easy to put together. All I really have to buy is a wig. I already have a white dress shirt, black pants and if I do this costume, I will place some powdered sugar on my nose and have a little droplet of blood coming out of my nose My other costume option would be a devil/schoolgirl thing, or Asami from Takeshi Miike's Audition. May be a little obscure for some people at the party who've never seen it, but man will it be freaky for those who have! ("kiri kiri kiriiii....")   We also watched Dead Like Me on DVD today. It was a great show, I'm sorry I never got a chance to catch it on cable before it was canceled. George's character need to stop with the whining for, like, *one* episode, please.   After he left, I got quite a bit of my take-home midterm exam done. I only have a couple questions left and I should definitely be done by Thursday (due date) *knock on wood*. And can I just say how much I haaaaaaate take-homes? They're always a million times harder than in class exams (because you supposedly have more time to research/prepare it) and it always stresses me out more. I have two separate study groups I'm going to on Tuesday for two different classes...oh man I hope I can get some pre-studying in beforehand. -------------------- Yule Update! Tentative To Buy List: Lick It Again - peppermint + sugar (supposedly more than last year! yay!) Brides of Dracula - almost based on name alone. I'm hoping this one at least smells pleasant on me even though I know florals generally aren't my thing. Sugar Skull '06- mmmm, sugar And imps of: Arkham Miskatonic University Night Gaunt Black Lily Shadow Witch Orchid Zombi

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hello again

wow, my last entry was quite a while ago.   Well, the thing is, nothing much has happened. I go to class, I come back, I study like a fiend, then I either have my bf sneak up to my apartment to spend the weekend with me or I sneak down to him to spend the weekend there. All this sneaking around is necessary because even though I am 23 my parents would still have a heart attack/brain aneurysm if they even suspect I spend the night with the guy I've been seeing for nearly two years It sucks, and I feel juvenile for doing it but their idea of us hanging out involves them too, as chaperones I guess. Oh yeah, and the last time I was home my mother tried to convince me that the boy is cheating on me. Her reasons varied, but the gist of it is that we don't seem to hang out a lot anymore (to her her knowledge heh heh), he's spending more time away from me (he's in f-in med school and he needs to be at the hospital and is on call a lot), and that he's in med school and I'm not so he's gonna cheat on me with a cute nurse ("trust me, I've seen it happen"). I admit I let all of this get to me (I was stressed out that weekend) and I left home to come back to campus early. Ugh, all I wanted to rest at home where the people who live above me aren't partying 24/7 so I can go to sleep. *sigh* I asked the people in the leasing office if they could at least ask the people who live above me to put carpet in (the lease states that we are all to place carpet down in "high traffic" areas) but they said they can't do anything (!) and told me to go deal with them myself. Ugh, then why have it in the lease at all of no one's gonna enforce it?! I'm getting very frustrated. Sure my place is close to campus, but i'm thinking I would've been better off renting in a more residential area. And now I'm supposed to be working on a super-hard take-home mid term but I'm procrastinating....back to work I guess.... At least I get to wake to to an update! (maybe)

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First Entry! whoo!

Ah, I have a blog again! The last one I had I was very bad about posting. So, hopefully, this will go better.   I'll mainly use this blog for rants, raves, random thoughts etc. Maybe I'll post pictures eventually.   So...on to the random thoughts!   * So far I think I like tea, fruit (but not cherry), and foody scents. Boozy's ok too as long as it morphs into something else later. White musk sometimes. But jasmine, magnolias and all florals that were in Blood Countess go insane on my skin and amp like crazy. I want to try maybe an incense or patchouli scent (Cathedral??) but I'm kinda afraid.   * I'm reeeally excited about the BPAL order I'm waiting on. I've bought my first 5 mL (Embalming Fluid) and my first LE (Peony Moon) I'm so proud. I've also ordered imps of O, Danube, The Hamptons, The Dormouse, Death on a Pale Horse and Dirty.   * Ducked outta work early to go shopping for skirts. I love spring!

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Kerei Ranting Ahead! (spoiler warning!)

So last weekend, my bf and I decided to watch one of the movies that he got off of his NetFlix list. The movie was a Japanese "thriller" called Kerei?. It was supposed to be a slightly creepy psychological thriller about a vain, shallow but beautiful plastic surgeon who meets an “ugly” girl who seems have some psychological issues stemming from her self-image. From the summary on the DVD case, the plastic surgeon’s life “is changed forever after they meet”.   Sounds good right? Lots of potential for creepyness. Wrong!   First off, lemme start by saying that hypothetically if I were to create a psychological thriller, I would not film it in a way that suggests that it is actually soft-core porn on Cinemax. The slightly blurry, soft-focus shots might confuse the hypthetical viewers and make them re-check their DVD and DVD case. Also, I would try to get more than $2000 for the budget so it doesn’t look like the entire movie is filmed in some guy's rented townhouse.   Also, I would make sure that the “ugly” character, a person so ugly that supposedly people stare at her in the street, is in fact “ugly”. The girl they got to play this part could not be the Ugly Creepy-Girl, because she was actually the Not So Good Looking But Maybe If She Took a Hairbrush to Her Hair Once in While It Wouldn’t Be That Bad-Girl. Also, for the first half of the movie she wears an awful wool hat to disguse her unattactiveness. This is what I would do: Get rid of the hat, the bulky coat, slap some cover-up and lipgloss on her face and brush her hair. There you go. And she wouldn’t even have to pay millions of yen for plastic surgery that would make her face asplode in the end.   In conclusion, do NOT rent this movie. For creepy Asian thrillers I recommend some Miike, specifically, Audition. Ooh, also, Tale of Two Sisters which is Korean and Shutter (Thai).

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Nervous!

So Tuesday is my first day of classes for grad school and I'm more nervous than I remembered ever being for undergrad. Will the work be too much? What if I can't take it? Will I make any friends? Will anyone like me? What if I'm doomed to staying in my room for semesters at a time, eating alone and not talking to anyone??! Gah! ::wrings hands::   Kind of related-during our orientation we sat with other people who were in our department and one guy annoyed the crap outta me. He would not stop talking about himself and about his knowledge on just about everything. He's the type to give unsolicited advice when you're in a conversation with another person and he is clearly not. This poor girl was trying to ask me something like, 4 times and he kept interrupting! We are not talking to you! And he did not shut up about being "in the Navy for the past 5 years". Dear god, I *don't care*!!!! So that entire night I was just afraid that everyone else in my department is like that too, even though I know that's impossible. Only a small number of people showed up for orientation (it wasn't mandatory) so I know not everyone will make me want to stab them in the eye with a broken beaker. I know for a fact that he's in one of my classes. If I ever have to do a group project with him....ugh, just ugh.   My point to this ranting is: Annoying Guy has made me even more aprehensive, which I know is rediculous but still....   So, yes, I need to stop making drama outta little things and *relax*. I may swipe some Bluebeard or Regan on tonight to help that along. I'm starting to regret giving away my frimp of Somnus, lol.   Unfortunately, there's no way I can stay up to 3am for the update. I've been packing all evening and stressing out so I need sleep. But, I'm looking forward to waking up to new additions...even if I might not be able to buy anything this time around (gasp!) I'm back to being unemployed so.....I think this will psych me up for the fall season. Yay for Halloween!

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Venting, etc.

So I think I've found a place to get my hair styled and cut. It's getting really long and icky so I'm excited to have it have some body again. I need it to be about 2.5 inches shorter and I think I want it to kinda look like this. Yes, I realize that's the girl from Final Fantasy and no, I've never played it before. The boy thinks this is hilarious because he is an avid gamer and has been telling me all along that Advent Children is a pretty movie and I'll like it. Yay, hair whoo!   *************** An old friend friended me on Facebook.com the other day. I am waaay too tired to be a Facebook elitist, so now I just re-friend anyone who asks including this guy. Anyways, I would normally think that the reason this person added me was to have his friend's list be 256,934 long or whatever the number is to beat these days. But, he also left me a message which was really nice. It was something along the lines of "we haven't talked in a while and I was just talking to so and so and I was reminded of you. What are you up to these days, etc."   The thing is, I'm not sure what to think. Our friendship did not end well. He was being what I thought (and still think) very clingy("where are you?? what are you doing?? who are you with? are you avoiding me??!") and we argued and I literally said to him to Fuck Off. Yeah, I know that wasn't very nice. But I am thinking of responding to his message, just so I can handle things more, uh, maturely this time. I'm not even sorry our friendship ended all that much. He didn't like any of my other friends so I was avoiding them to hang out with him. It was for the best, really. We spent all of our time together and I didn't like the person I was (and was becoming) when I was around him. I'm just ashamed of how it ended. I guess I have habit of burning bridges with friends. Another friend I just froze out after my sophomore year of college. And this person, we'll call her C, I've been friends with since middle school. I ended this friendship because honestly, I was getting really jealous of her and as a result I was getting depressed that I wasn't as pretty, beautiful, glamorous, wealthy, smart as she was. I got tired of being "the friend" at clubs. You know, the friend guys always target so they can get they prettier friends number out of you? I was tired of working my ass off just to get by in college while she was off jetsetting around Europe because she had a trust fund that her parents set up for her. I was jealous of how pretty she was with no effort at all while I struggled to keep my weight down. I still have all those issues actually, and thinking about them now still makes me sad. It was so hard to catch up with her during summer (she went to school in Europe) and have her go on and on about what she did that year when the only I did was work and study and try to keep afloat. I do think it was selfish of me to end that friendship the way I did. She was never anything but nice to me, but I couldn't handle my own crap and the jealousy that I felt. I'm actually thinking of contacting her again, apologizing for the way things went down and trying to be chatty again at least. I have a 5-year High School Reunion coming up this fall and I don't want to have to avoid someone because I can't handle my shit, ya know? Thing is, I don't even know if confident enough in myself to be "second fiddle" (at least in my mind) again. Anyways, my question to anyone who might be reading this long-ass post is have you ever had a situation where you just had to let a friendship go? What did you about it, if anything. Also, what do you think I should do. I guess I'm looking for advice 'cause you know, guilt agghh! *********** Geez, this was not the lighthearted entry I meant it to be. Here, I'll lighten things up a little: A man is sitting in bar when a guy with a giant, orange head comes in and sits right by him. He asks, "Hey man, what happened?" "Oh this? Well, I found this lamp and then I rubbed it. A genie came out and said I had three wishes. I asked for hot wife which is how I met her-" and he takes a photo of beautiful model out of his wallet. "And for my second wish I asked to be rich-" he then pulls out a $100 bill to pay for his drink."And for my last wish, and here is where I think I went really, horribly wrong..I asked for a giant, orange head."

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Living Dead Dolls

Living Dead Dolls Wishlist!! In no particular order:   1. Elisa Day   2. Dottie Rose   3. Bride of Valentine   4. Lottie   5. Kitty   6. Posey   Have:   1. Sadie   2. Hollow   Cute, yes?

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iPod on Random

So, to copy borrow an idea from my friend's lj, I am posting the first 20 songs played on my iPod when I set it on random:   1. Bizarre Love Triangle-New Order   2. Thank You for the Venom-My Chemical Romance   3. Cradel of Forest (Silent Hill 4 Soundtrack)-Akira Yamaoka   4. Like a Man Possessed-The Get Up Kids   5. U-Mass-The Pixies   6. Not the One-The Donnas   7. Boarding the Serenity (Firefly Soundtrack)   8. Porcelina of the Vast Oceans-Smashing Pumpkins   9. Lust for Life-Iggy Pop   10. Lovefool-The Cardigans   11. Headlong-Queen   12. Qui Tollis-Antonio Vivaldi   13. L'Autre Valse D'Amelie (Amelie Soundtrack)-Yann Tiersen   14. Blister in the Sun-Violent Femmes   15. Tears on Fresh Fruit-Sparklehorse   16. Fall Victim-Alkaline Trio   17. Transylvanian Concubine-Rasputina   18. Hannah Hold On-The Get Up Kids   19. Prince-S-Sebadoh   20. For Your Lungs Only-Alkaline Trio ------ Phew! If I had actually listened to this, there would have been more than a couple instances of auditory whiplash I'm sure. Creepy, atmospheric Silent Hill music followed by the Get Up Kids? Queen followed by Vivaldi? sheesh. -------- Didn't get Harvest Moon I'm saving up for Carnaval Diabolique and the GC update later this month. Besides, Hungry Ghost Moon is already seeming a bit foody. The pomegranate does sound delicious though. I love pomegranate scents. Swank was very good to me.

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Update Wishlist

*Emphasis on the Wish!* (I'm trying let my credit cards have a rest, I gave 'em a workout by buying textbooks )   A Picnic in Arkham   Miskaonic University-"The scent of Irish coffee, dusty tomes and polished oakwood halls. "   Night Gaunt-"Their scent of their slick, rubbery hides is bittersweet, ticklish, and skin-creeping: something akin to yuzu, white grapefruit, and kumquat mixed with the snow-dusted flowers of Mount Ngranek."   Arkham-"A shadowy, unapproachable forest of maple, birch, dogwood, cypress and pine softened by a garland of New England wildflowers: bergamot, columbine, rue anemone, blue violet, creeping phlox, bloodroot, toadflax, and pixie moss."     The Order of the Dragon   The Brides of Dracula-"Unquenchable desire, seething lust, malevolent sexuality, and voracious hunger lurking beneath a shimmering veil of unearthly beauty: gleaming skin musk, honey and white amber, plum blossom, osmanthus, sandalwood, calla lily, and a light, sensual blend of Eastern spices."   Wilhelmina Murray-"Tea rose, white sandalwood and a flurry of pale, virginal blossoms, smeared with a smoky, blood-soiled blend of myrrh, hyacinth, Daemonorops resin, dark musk and blackcurrant."   Halloweenie   Devil's Night 2006-"This is the scent of autumn night, fires in the distance, with a touch of boozy swoon, playful sugar and thuggish musk"   Pumpkin Queen-"The Glorious Grand Dame of the Pumpkin Patch! Regal Egyptian Amber, red ginger, orange peel, mandarin, cardamom, fig leaf and warm pumpkin."   Samhain 2006-"Truly the scent of autumn itself -- damp woods, fir needle, and black patchouli with the gentlest touches of warm pumpkin, clove, nutmeg, allspice, sweet red apple and mullein. "

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Good day

Today has been a good day, so far. The annoying co-worker wasn't at work today, we got a half-day because of the upcoming holiday and I finally got my t-shirts I ordered off of Threadless.com. I got this one and this one   The first one I like a lot because it reminds me of Battle Royale, one of my favorite books ever. Guns + schoolgirl uniforms = awesome, for some reason. I still have a love/hate thing for Mitsuko. She's so evil, but yet so badass! I guess I like femme fatales because I am so not like that. I am really shy and I'd rather go read something or mix chemicals in beakers rather than start up a conversation with someone I don't know. Ah anyways, I must re-read that book one day. As it is, I have 5 other books I need to read before I get to the point where I'm re-reading for fun. I tried the shirt on (Guy's Size Small) and it seems it's a bit too large for me. I wish they were still selling girly sizes. The second I got mostly 'cause the girl on the shirt is reading, and uh.....I do that a lot. Oh, and pretty colors. I'm a sucker for pretty colors (and packaging, but that's a whole other thing...)   ********** ::Sigh:: The boy has started rotations this week and so he's tired a lot of the time and I don't get to see him as much Most of the free time he gets (and its very little) he wants to spend napping, which is understandable. I feel bad for him, but the selfish part of me misses hugs, kisses, and him calling me "banana-rama", lol.   We don't know whether he'll get the 4th off, but it's not likely. Most likely, some asshat will blow off his hand/leg/naughty bits with some illegal fireworks and the boy will have to stay at the hospital longer. Argh.   *********** I'm glad the weather isn't as bad anymore. This means I have no more excuses to not exercise. I started up running again last week and stopped because of the OMGRAINFLOOD!!111111 So I'm gonna go today. I love my run/walk routine. I crank up my cheesy rock (Queen, Pantera, White Zombie, Kiss), and Hooray for Eyeliner Emo (My Chemical Romance) with some ABBA (yes, ABBA, I admit it!) on my iPod. I always have to spray a bit of Off! Bugspray or else I get bitten. A lot. ************ One very last thing: I found a rather large spider in the downstairs bathroom last week. I haven't stepped foot in there since. I hate crawly things. They're all....crawly and stuff.   Have a nice (spider and bug-free) weekend, BPAL-ers!

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