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Urg.

Dudes. My mom called and was mad at me becuase I missed one of her calls! I was out getting lunch and left my cell phone in my apartment by mistake. I didn't check it when I got back so I had no idea she even called in the first place. Also, she is mad at me because I've decided to stay at my apartment after I took my last exam and start packing a bit (we're moving out Saturday), instead of returning home right away. I can't stand this. This is completely ridiculous, and I have no idea how I'm gonna live with her for 2-3 months when I move back home (my lease wasn't renewed because they're renovating etc).   Also, a couple weeks ago, I transfered $8,000 from my savings to hers becuase she wanted her account to look good (she's applying for to own part of a franchise). She wasn't going to use it, it's just gonna sit there until they/she gets all the papers in order and then she'll transfer it back. Well, it's been a couple weeks, and it's still not back in my account. I don't think she'll actually use it/steal it, but I'd like my savings back now please. I'll ask her about it in a subtle way, after she stops being pissed at me for no reason. It was going to be my "Texas" money (which brings me to my next issue).   My bf of more than two years might be moving to Texas (or Ohio) depending on if he gets the internship (residency?) he wants after he's done with med school (spring '08). I refuse to do long distance relationship that is MD to Texas long, so most likely I'll be moving with him. I won't be living with him, but I'll get a job and an apartment in the area. I'm kind of looking forward to it, so I can get away and become more independent of my parents. This is my issue. My parents are super conservative and overprotective to the extreme. I cannot imagine how they are going to react when I tell them. In fact, this is the thing that I worry about the most. It seems that every serious conversation we have, ends with them yelling at me, becoming angry, and me in tears. I'm 24, and I can't believe I'm still in this situation with them. What should I do? How do I tell them?

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VA Tech events

I must confess that right now the only people I feel sympathy for are the victims, their families and friends, the campus, and the shooter's parents. Basically, everyone but the shooter himself. Maybe one day I'll feel bad for him too, but not right now. Right now, I'm still in my angry stage.   On Monday morning while going to the post office on campus I overheard some girl mentioning "It happened at VA Tech" and thought nothing of it. I thought it was men's basketball ACC talk, and forgot about it until I opened up the CNN.com webpage like I do every day. I was shocked, saddened and angry. I still can't believe that all those people are gone.   As for the media, I've been trying to avoid most TV coverage because the sensationalism saddens me and of course, I question the wisdom of releasing the actual video the guy made to the public. (Ugh, I don't even want to write his name ) Yahoo.com has some quotes from it though, including one that has incensed me:   "Thanks to you, I die like Jesus Christ, to inspire generations of the weak and the defenseless people"   I'm not even Christian and this pisses me off. Jesus? Um, NO. I don't think the Bible ever mentioned that Jesus ever went on a rampage and killed a bunch of people. I suppose we can take this to mean that other people just as unbalanced and disturbed might attempt a copycat? That's about it. His blaming everyone except for himself for his actions angers me too. I guess I can't comprehend what drove someone to kill 32 people. Okay, you're depressed and troubled, but what does everyone else have to do with it?   I also admit that the first thought that came to mind after reading his play was "Wow, that was really shitty writing". Seriously, it sounded like a sullen 13 year old boy in remedial English wrote it. Someone mentioned in the VA Tech thread that it sounded angry, and on that I have to agree. Even through his bad writing you can see how frustrated and mad he was.   I don't know how to conclude this entry. I guess I just wanted to rant and ramble. Thanks for reading, if you've got this far

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Whine/Confession Post

Damn you, Facebook. I was tagged in two photos and then I untagged myself because I think I look fat in them. I didn't want any of my friends from high school to think "Oh, she got fat hahahaha".   So my confession is this: yes, I am this self-concious/vain. Also, I hate Facebook newsfeed because it made the whole untagging thing useless, as I had already shown up on the friend's list recent activities thing. Grrr.   ************ I hate being this size. I hate that I've gained weight since college and that I delete all the pics of myself that I think are ugly becuase I think they make me look fat. Ugh. I know I'll be stressing about this Facebook tagging business all night.

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Hot Fuzz Advanced Screening!

Friday night, the boy and I went to an advanced screening of Hot Fuzz, a comedy by the team behind Shaun of the Dead, one of my favorite movies ever, and Spaced, one of the best TV shows ever The movie was hilarious. If you liked the type of geeky humor in Shaun of the Dead and Spaced, you'll love this move. I won't give away too much except to say that it's to action movies what Shaun of the Dead was to zombie movies.   We were so excited to not only get in (it was first come, first serve-the (free) tix didn't guarantee entrance) but get amazing seats- third row, center! Seriously, I'm convinced that Simon Pegg is my bf's heterosexual man-crush, lol.   Here are some pics (with the bf cropped out b/c he doesn't want to be on the intarwebs):   The panel L to R: Nick Frost, Edgar Wright, Simon Pegg pointing accusingly. I think this is where he answers a fan's question of "Whose idea was it to dropkick the granny?"   Me and Edgar Wright:   Me and Nick Frost who was adorable and friendly.   Me and Simon Pegg who told my bf "Hey, thanks for coming out, mate!" Fangirl squeeee! Sorry about the gigantic pic. It won't resize and the direct link isn't working for some reason.

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Battlestar Galactica-"The Son Also Rises"

I'm posting this here even though I'll be posting in the thread too becuase I'm sure no one wants to read/hear what I'm sure sounds like a broken record by now: Why why why is Cally still on this show?! She really pissed me off with her "We don't get second chances-::looks at Sharon::-or third chances" comment. Congratulations, that was really subtle. What are you, six?   I loved the bonus scene where Sharon creeps up on her. Awesome.   Also-Someone saved the cats (or at least a cat) after the attacks! Yay!   That's pretty much all for now. I'll post the rest of my thoughts in the BSG thread tomorrow when I'm less sleepy.

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Birthday

For my birthday, the boy came up to spend the weekend. He came bearing gifts Yay!   I recieved- A live recording of the last Pixies show in DC from 2004. This was one of our first dates   Audiobook of The Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy, read by the author. I've been looking for this for months and months.   A box of yummy chocolate from Schakolad. The box itself? Chocolate   The chocolates!     The boy (+ chocolate)   Me!

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Argh!

Ok, so I've recently gotten myself and the boy into Battlestar Galactica. I knew I was gone when I exclaimed "Frak you!" to the car that cut me off the other day in traffic. I knew the boy was gone when he made Cylon jokes. So far I've only seen the miniseries and a part of season 1 up to "Act of Contrition". The "Argh!" that is the title of this post is in response to my weird ability to attract spoilers from all over. And once I see/hear a bit of it, I can't stop! I'll be reading through some random LJs of people I only kind of know, or be listening to conversations in class, and now I know stuff and I can't un-know it. For example, Sharon "Boomer" is now "Athena", there's a weird/crazy pairing between Lee and Kara (imho, so wrong,ew, because it's a real possibility that they hate each others guts) and then there's also possibly Helo/Kara-which is so wrong becuase....well, it should be Helo/circe_blue Or at the very least Helo/Boomer...Aaa!   I hope this show continues to be amazing. I used to be a really, really big X-Files fan but then season 8/9 came along and while I still wanted to watch, I would check out spoilers for the episodes to steel myself for whatever convoluted plot twist they threw at me on Sunday nights. Anyone else remember that "Fox/Dana" e-mail?? ::shudder::   PS-I am totally NetFlixing these of course. There's no way I'm waiting a week for each new episode again. Of course, I would have to dodge the spoilers more... Alright, I should get to bed. I have a busy day tomorrow and I'll most likely have to come back to this post to make it more comprehensible. G'nite!     ETA: I am now finishing up season 2.5. So far Helo/"Boomer" or new model #8, and seemingly Lee/Kara. Stupid me-I forgot the number 1 rule of TV/movie romances. If they hate each other's guts, of course they will end up together Also, the boy and I have started calling Anders Dane Cook. Sharon Screaming "Let them try to take this baby!!!!" and Slamming Her Head Against the Wall = Creepy Last Parting Shot of Sharon's Pregnant Belly Set to Creepy Music = Double Creepy Gauis Having Invisible Naughty Dirty Cylon Sex and Getting Caught by Starbuck = Hilarious!

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Oh, crap

So I was really a hungry hungry hippo today so I went to the grocery store. I bought:   Strawberries (on sale! they were delicious) Bagels Cereal Skim milk Vitamin water(I may be addicted, they're so yummy. Also: 3 for $3!!) A box of SnackWells creme sandwiches   I thought I was being healthy. Well, hours and hours later, and 9 cookies later I glance at the back of the box. Calories: 110, Serving Size: 2 cookies Whoops. Teaches me not to check serving sizes first. I used to do it all the time, I swear, but the one time I forget! Bah!   On a different note, I had another fight with my mom today. Really, I hate it when adults act like children. I hate it when my dad always takes her side even though she bullies him sometimes too. I hate living at home with them. Oh, you crazy asian moms. Distance makes the heart fonder, get me away from here!!

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Happy Friday?

So today was a nice friday because:   1. A coworker and I went to Target during our lunch break. Yaaay Target!   2. I kept getting compliments on my new t-shirt. It pays homage to my looove of horror movies.   3. The boy came over. He's been doing rounds/working at the hospital for all of the week. I haven't seen him in a week ::gasp::... I missed him!   4. Finding out that Nightmare Before Christmas will be re-released in theaters in 3D!   Not so great moments:   1. Watching Sleepaway Camp for the first time. It was cheesy-bad 80's stuff until the disturbing ending. Ew.   2. Me telling my mom that I'll be going to dinner and a movie with the boy tomorrow and her angrily saying "why do always go to dinner with just the two of you? We [my parents] should be going with you! " Dude, it's a date. With two people. You are not included because 90% of the time we hang around at home watching movies in your house with you around 'cause you're crazy-strict even though I'm 23 and you won't let me go anywhere. Argh argh argh. Sometimes, you just wanna be alone with your significant other sans parents. Is that too much to ask? I love them, but the craziness must stop   Only 39 days till grad school/moving the #### out! Wheee!   My weekend so far looks like it will involve a journey to IKEA to buy/scope out furniture, dinner and Clerks II date, posting a roomate wanted ad, sleeping. Have a nice weekend, BPALers!

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Mint Car

...so yeah, I didn't know what to title this entry so I called it the first thing that popped into my head. I do The Cure. ******************* Weird Dreams:   I really need to stop reading historical non-fiction before I go to bed. The other night I dreamt that I was a court Lady at Versailles and I was dancing with Louis XVI. His coat was silver and blue silk and it had fleur du lis on it. Anyways, all I remember about the dance was that he kissed me and it was **hot** . Yeah, very weird to get a hot kiss from a king who was allegedly socially inept. Even if it was dream-kiss. (For the record, the book was Marie Antoinette: The Journey by Antonia Fraser.)   The other dream I had more recently:   It is the very first day of graduate classes and I'm sitting in a drab, gray room. Suddenly, it's announced that we will have a pop-quiz. On the first day, crap! So I'm freaking out, and I find out that for this quiz we have to pick two songs, write down the lyrics and either analyze or critique them. So my two songs were gonna be "Shady Lane" by Pavement and "This Could Be Love" by Alkaline Trio, only I could not for the life of me remember the damn lyrics..   While I was freaking out, I find that I only have 20 minutes left to complete the quiz and just when I start to panic all over again, I wake up.   ******************* Tonight a family friend graduated from art school with a graphic design degree. He even designed the invitations that the school distributed to guests, which I think is awesome.   Anyways, to celebrate we went to have some Korean BBQ. And can I just say? MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmm........ There is no emoticon available that is drool-y enough for me to convey how yummy it was. I'm dragging the boy there next time, not that he'd mind.

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HappyHappyJoyJoy

The last 48 hours were great. On Friday, there was hardly any work to be done, so I ducked out early and went shopping. I dropped $80 at H&M , then the boy and I went to a small Mexican place for dinner and Cinco de Mayo yumminess. I had the chicken fajitas which weren't all that adventurous but yummy just the same. Next time, I'll try the chimichangas if I'm feeling particularly indulgent (they're deep fried tortillas, if I remember correctly).   After that we went over to my our friend's place where she and her husband had about 8 other people over to watch bad 70s porn. And it was bad. Like, not even so bad it's good, just f-in bad. After awhile we all got tired of making fun of it (too easy, at one point a mastiff and a fun house mirror was involved), and just drank and caught up with one another. It was great. Had a wonderful time trying to explain "Snakes on a Plane" to my friend's boyfriend.   Borrowed a book from my friend (yay! things to read!), then came home and fell asleep. I was DD for my boy, and good thing too. We both knew he was a little buzzed/well on his way to becoming hammered because he got real chatty about completely inane and sometimes TMI things, lol. On the way back I spotted not one, not two, but four cop cars including one that had pulled over some dude who was in the middle of the Follow the Path of my Finger with Your Eyes Test.   Today, something happened that made the 48 hours even better. I got an acceptance letter to a Grad Program! YAaaaaaaaaaaaaay!! I'm a little (a lot) scared too, because this means I need to get over my horrible bad study habits that made getting into a grad program initially so hard. So, in celebration, I think I'm gonna make a BPAL order Perhaps I should wait till the next update though? Hmmmmm....   Happy weekend, everyone!

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First Entry! whoo!

Ah, I have a blog again! The last one I had I was very bad about posting. So, hopefully, this will go better.   I'll mainly use this blog for rants, raves, random thoughts etc. Maybe I'll post pictures eventually.   So...on to the random thoughts!   * So far I think I like tea, fruit (but not cherry), and foody scents. Boozy's ok too as long as it morphs into something else later. White musk sometimes. But jasmine, magnolias and all florals that were in Blood Countess go insane on my skin and amp like crazy. I want to try maybe an incense or patchouli scent (Cathedral??) but I'm kinda afraid.   * I'm reeeally excited about the BPAL order I'm waiting on. I've bought my first 5 mL (Embalming Fluid) and my first LE (Peony Moon) I'm so proud. I've also ordered imps of O, Danube, The Hamptons, The Dormouse, Death on a Pale Horse and Dirty.   * Ducked outta work early to go shopping for skirts. I love spring!

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Random Thought Part II

Random Thoughts Part II     * I'm really excited for the Silent Hill movie to come out. Lately, the boy has been playing through 1, 3 and is on 2 so I can have a feel of the plot and atmosphere etc. I love it so far.   I am not playing because I've proven myself incompetent after getting killed by ZombieNurses, was ran off a rollercoaster track (and died), got myself stuck in a room with rotting walls (and died), and fell into an endless hole never to be seen again (ie: died) among other things. So after that I handed the controller to the bf. I still wish I could fill a bag with bacon/meat and thwap Bosses on the head with it, though. There must be something I could use em for besides distracting monsters.   The Whiney and Mopey Edition *I think I'm going to a rough patch in my life. Actually I know I am. I am currently at a job I really like in my field except I hate one of my coworkers soooo much and it's a pretty small office so it's hard to ignore her. The pay is pretty bad, and the cost of living pay increase we got last year is not helping at all. Rent is sky-high in this area and if you wanna live in a place that you'd feel pretty safe in you'd have to give up an arm and a leg and perhaps your firstborn (you know, for the utilities ) Basically, I wanna get the ^*&(* outta my parents house and the crazyness that usually forms between us. After being at college for four years and left to my own devices I've learned that distance does make the heart grow fonder. --I'm applying to grad school and the stress of waiting/not knowing/expecting rejection is killing me. --Sometimes I think my bf doesn't give a damn about me even though I know that's a crazy thought and it's not true. I'm just feeling not confident about anything right now, and I'd like to be someone else for awhile.   If you've made it this far, thanks for being interested or bored enough. Here, have a cyber-

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BPAL, work, whineyness, and cake

I'm scared of Death on a Pale Horse! Description from Lab: The End of All Things: empty white musk and mint seeped with solemn lavender, doleful patchouli and vetiver, scythe-sharp yuzu and lime, with geranium bourbon, white sandalwood and calla lily.   Lavender makes me go "yeugh", and I'm kinda scared of sandalwood. I've read it as being "herbally and lavender" which reminds me of this Burt's Bees handcreme that goes bad on my skin (for some reason it smells like bleach and old vase-water when it dries. ew) However, if the white musk, lime and maybe lilies cooperate with the others it won't be too bad? I wanted to order something "out there" that I would have never thought of trying but now I want an imp of Euterpe. Mmmm, lemonade . Mostly though, I want my imps and Peony moon! cantwaitcantwait *********** At work there was a big-ass bug in the hall. I didn't get close enough to figure out what it was but it looked kinda spider-y. *shudder* So, in typical girl fashion, my coworkers and I spent a while shrieking as it moved (skittered) around and proclaimed that we were not going near it, much less get close enough to kill it. Eventually some guy did (we don't know who, we never saw) and left the body lying there in the hall. Scary-ness, yo. ********** Whiney Section (and yes, I would like some cheese with that!) I'm so jealous of friends or random people who I've never even met! Everyone with a nice job they love that pays well, everyone who's beautiful, everyone who's going to a good school, or is super-smart, or has a big loving family, or has time to travel/backpack throughout Europe, I am jealous! **turns into green-eyed monster** grrr, arrgh! ******** After reading the description of one of the Monster Baits, I could really go for some yummy coconut cake. (I love bunnies!)

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Cillian Murphy...

...is someone I'd like to do all sorts of naughty things to. There's a couple scenes in 28 Days Later where he looks like my bf and *purrrr*   And I'd share my last tube of MAC lipstick with Robert Smith. Sometimes, hearing "Just Like Heaven" randomly come on the radio makes me so happy I smile like a crazy person when I'm in my car. I also sing along--loudly and off-key.

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Pining for Peony

Where art thou, Peony Moon? ::waitsimpatientlychecksemail:: Next time, I'll be a smart girl and separate GC orders from just released LEs. Then, I can get some imps to tide me over till the Lunacy oil arrives. I'm gonna go check out the How Do You Plan Your Order thread. I sniffed some Peony-something at the Gap today. Smelled really soft, and pinkish, and nice and clean. Then I noticed that because the tester had been handled so much the oil was leaking out of the roller-ball thingy and soaked a bit of the bottle and my hand. Also, it had bits of dirt or something on it from being dropped on the floor probably. I hate that. What are these people doing to the roll on applicator?! It's not that hard to use! Tried some commercial perfumes also. Thierry Mugler's Angel Violette and Cacherel's Promesse. The Angel smelled alcohol-y and then morphed into B.O on me. Nasty. Ugh. Promesse was better but nothing that impressed me enough for me to buy it right then and there. Flowery, soft, young, didn't smell like some dude who hadn't taken a shower in a summer week.   Really excited to hear about Hungry Ghost Moon . Sounds great.   Watched the Office without the bf there with me or on the phone with me, and it felt a bit weird. Still funny though. "Jim Halpert, clean up in Aisle 4, laundry detergent." and the Dwight NBC public service announcement was fantastic.   Also, my cat bit and clawed at me yesterday. I bled. A lot. For all the times he's a big ol' pile of fluff and cuteness there are just as many times he's a Little Furry Bastard.

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Cherry Blossoms in DC, Bath & Body Works

Went to see the cherry blossoms today. I don't exactly know why we go each year when we have a friggin cherry blossom tree in our front yard. I tried to convince my parents that going sometime other than opening weekend and taking the metro would be easier as we wouldn't have to deal with crappy District parking, but my dad insisted on driving. So he did. Ugggghhhh. 40 minutes to drive into DC and another 50 to find a parking space. That 50 minutes were spent driving at around 15 miles per hour and stopping to let the pedestrians cross where there weren't any crosswalks. Bastards. I hope some of them realize the only reason they didn't get yelled at was because they had a &*(^&ing stroller with them Other (DC) motorists weren't as nice. As you can tell, I haaaate large crowds. Also, when the sign by the WWII memorial fountain says Please Respect the Memorial by Not Wading In It and Not Throwing Coins, I think it means Please Respect the Memorial by Not Wading In It and Not Throwing Coins. Aside from the frustrations mentioned above, the trip was pretty good. The weather cooperated and was a beautiful, sunny 65 degrees, and we had a picnic lunch under the shade of a cherry blossom tree. Drove through Georgetown while I fantasized about doing damage to my credit card and the parents and I didn't fight. Not once. Victory! **************** Awhile ago, I think Bath and BW had some sort of buy three things for $25 deal I, on a whim decided to buy the antibacterial soap in Ginger and White Tea (or something). I am very happy I did. It smells like Embalming Fluid when it's still in the bottle. Happyhappyjoyjoy. **************** As much I despise Dave Matthews Band, I have to say that their collaberation with Ben & Jerry's ice cream yields some of the yummiest B & J's ever. One Sweet Whirled is one of my favorites but Magic Brownies (vanilla ice cream swirled with raspberry and brownie bits) is slowly but surely edging it out.

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CnS Squeeing, Dragon Moon update etc.

I got my CnS today! Yaaaaayyy!!! As posted in the CnS thread, I ordered:   Peony Moon 5ml Embalming Fluid 5ml   Imp Pack: Dirty, Death on a Pale Horse, O, Danube, White Rabbit, The Hamptons.   Can't wait to try Peony Moon and O (mmm, naughtyness!) And of course, I'd like to have more Embalming Fluid. My poor imp is dead. I think I 'd it to death. There's no oil left (none, I tried, trust me) and 90% of the label has torn off. All that's left is an oil stained remnant that reads "EMB FLU". Unfortunately, it is not the cure for the flu unless smelling like deliciousness is a cure (and on this forum, who knows??). ********** Dragon Moon:The Dragon Moon celebrates the glory and vigor of Springtime: dragon’s blood resin, tea leaf, bamboo reed, sandalwood and cherry blossom. Huh, luckily for my credit card, I'll have to pass on this one. Dragon's blood resin turns weird and syrupy on me and gives me a headache. No thank you.   Midway: A bombardment of edible carnival indulgences. Funnel cake, caramel apple, cotton candy, salt water taffy and sugar tart. I think I read on the reviews that this smelled like pink cotton candy and on another like too much buttery caramel. I'd go for the cotton candy. Maybe. Snake Charmer: Sensual, sibilant, sexual and hypnotic: Arabian musk and exotic spices slinking through Egyptian amber, enticing vanilla, and a serpentine blend of black plum, labdanum, ambrette, benzoin and black coconut. I've been wanting to expand my horizons with some spicey, amber scents. Plus, coconut and vanilla?! I'm in! Wantwantwant.   Also, imps of Tweedledee, Tweedledum, Eat Me ("What are you wearing?" "Eat Me!!"), Mouse's Long and Sad Tale, Euterpe, and Sin.   Okay, so maybe my credit card didn't get off too easily after all.

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For "Office" fans

Okay, so the Jim/Pam thing has been dying down quite a bit this season. And, actually I think Karen is pretty damn cool, and I'm not mad that Jim is with her as long as eventually he gets with Pam. The bf even likes Karen more than Pam   So, without Jim/Pam this season I find myself more and more fascinated by Ryan and Kelly. That last episode where she rambles on and on (and on and on) about Netflix and Ryan just sits there staring while people file in and place money on the table because it's obviously a bet to see how long he can get her to talk/say the word "awesome" (::breathes::...)--hilarious.   I came across Mindy Kaling's (aka Kelly) Blog: http://mindyephron.blogspot.com/ Really great. Not much about "The Office" itself, more about stuff she likes and buys (is that so Kelly, or what? ). It is awesome and I am slowly but surely making my way through the archives. ---------- Also, just found out about the Tokyo Stomp shortage. This relieved me so much! I know I'm usually the last to get my CnS but I was really starting to worry. Now, I know that my package has not been lost, stolen, stomped by large lizards attempting to invade Tokyo. Phew!   PS: Can you believe that in the 9th grade we were given an extra credit assignment to watch the "new" Godzilla with Matthew Broderick then write a paper on it? Something about asexual reproduction is all I can remember.

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Campus Visit, BPAL, The Omen etc.

So tomorrow I go to visit the campus of my grad school. I have an apartment viewing at 11, advisor meeting at 1, and campus tour at 2. Logic would have dictated that the campus tour should've been scheduled first so I would know where to meet my advisor and see my apartment building but scheduling with this particular tour guide was kinda difficult, since he has stuff going on that day and wants to get home early to take care of his sick daughter. I am kinda excited and aprehensive at the same time.   Apartment Viewing: The campus made a deal with a hotel chain so it is renting out several floors to graduate and international students. Which means that although the apartment is technically off-campus, it very close (across the street) and high speed internet and cable is through campus. Whoo! Also, the price is amazing. It would cost $900-1000 in the area I live now to get either a crappy one bedroom in a sketchy area or a studio. I will be paying much, much, less. I am viewing the "master" bedroom. Rock. And the girl who I talked to who will potentially be my roomate sounded really nice. She's getting her master's in physical therapy, very cool.   Advisor meeting: I'm still kinda scared about this because I have images in my head of the worst case scenario which would be the advisor laughing at me and telling me I wasn't accepted after all. Argh. Though it probably will just involve reiterating the rules of the program (3.0GPA or above to graduate, no C's allowed), and picking out some classes for fall. Ah, it kinda feels good to be picking out classes and buying books again after (only) a year of working out in the "real world". I will miss my lovely steady paychecks and most of the people I work with. Also a friend once said to me, the best part about working vs. School is that after you come home from work, you're technically off the clock and there's no extra work like projects or studying to be done. Ahhhh, that *is* nice.   Campus Tour: Looking forward to this, the campus looked really nice on the website/brochure. I went to a fairly large college for undergrad and that took a lot of getting used to. I'm glad I'm going to a smaller place for grad. ******************* I was going to make an order this month but I didn't really think Lotus Moon would work for me. I'm afraid of Soap!Lotus and Evil!Rose which happens to be one of the scents that my skin amps like crazy. Maybe next month? Is next month Hungry Ghost Moon? Either way, I want new smellies before I go away for fall!   Also, I was heartbroken when O turned to a sweet soapy concoction on my skin. Dammit, I wanted to smell like sex too! I left it for about 2 months and either I'm starting to get used to it, or it has morphed a little, but I don't find it so icky anymore. Death on a Pale Horse, despite the coolest name ever, was too masculine for me. I do love The Hamptons and Swank though. Man, I must smell like a lush! ************** Has anyone ever seen the Japanese trailer for The Omen? I did, and when the priest says "his coming has heralded the Apocalypse" or something similar the trailer goes through a montage of sorts of all these disasters. Fire, flood, etc. Anyways, I thought I saw a flash of, get this, two very tall buildings in a large city with smoke coming out of them. Yep, the Twin Towers. I thought I was seeing things, but then I rewound my downloaded trailer and yep, there they were. WTF?! Are we blaming 9/11 on Damien now?! Ugh. I was disgusted that they even brought it up in that way. I saw another trailer today on TV and for a similar part, they showed a clip of the Asian tsunami. You know, that footage that's taken from the balcony of a hotel in Thailand and then this huge wave comes crashing into the patio/pool area. Again, ugh. ********** On a lighter note, I'm listening to the Firefly soundtrack. It makes me happy, especially theme song which I used to sing as "Take my love, take my land, something something cue the fiddle" Rawr, for Simon Tam.

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Apartment Wishlist

Saw the apartment today. It looked okay. It was definitely in a convenient location but the place itself is kinda small. There are only two "official" bedrooms and one of them has no windows (wtf??!!) and the other one is the master bedroom and is already occupied. That left me with the windowless wonder (aka "The Cell") and the other "room" which was a very well partitioned off area of the living room. ::Sigh:: dissapointing, but I guess I'll take it, for the price, free cable, gym on premesis and location. Therefore, I need a new bed and a new desk, everything else (chair, bookcase, bedside table, lamps etc.) I already have.   I want: This Desk and This Lovely Bed Frame Maybe this chest/drawers and a(nother) bookcase. I'm getting tired of looking. Now I'm sad 'cause I don't really like the place all that much. I've been spoiled with the sweet apartment I've lived in during undergrad, I guess. This? is nothin' like that. aargh. *********** Registered for classes and it was pretty funny watching my advisor try to find a class that I haven't already taken in undergrad. Basically, I settled on Molecular Biology and Immunology for this fall. Both of which I've taken before, just not this in depth. Scared and excited. It was hell trying to navigate the website. My sheet of directions tell me to click on links that are no longer there, so that was oh-so fun. ********* Campus was beautiful and very different from where I went to school. It's a bit smaller to be sure (one of the reasons I was drawn to this school) but it has lots of greenery and wooded areas that would've been sectioned off for development in a nanosecond at other places. ********* I'm super-tired. Woke up early today, drove hours and hours, then walked and walked and did it all over again. Can't wait for sleep tonight. And tomorrow I get to wake up to a Friday! Whooo, TGIF in advance, to everyone!

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HGM, etc.

Hungry Ghost Moon-looks amazing and was all I would hope it would be. After reading the description I now want some ginger candy....So in addition to a 5mL of HGM, I ordered a pack of imps. The imps I ordered were Vixen, Sin, Katharina, Lolita, Antique Lace, and Euterpe. Hooray! Now, I'll just settle in and wait for my package to arrive. -------------------- Apartment Update: The place that I wrote about before is now not happening. Despite assurances that the place has "an extremely good chance" of going to me and a promise to call me later in the week, the girl did not call me back. Or returned my phone call and e-mail to her. I was angry at first, I mean, she is 26 and should know that when you promise to call someone to tell them whether or not they have the place you should call at the very least to tell them that unfortunately they won't have the place blahblahblah. Not keep them waiting in a weird limbo stage that could've been spent looking for another place to live had they known. Show some responsibility!   But whatever. I now have another place that is just as close to school and will be significantly less expensive once I get an apartment-mate. They'd get the huuuuuge (20 x 15) master bedroom and I'd get the smaller one. Mostly 'cause I dunno what to do with all that space. The issue of furniture remains as I have very very little of it since I live with the 'rents still. I need: -Sofa -Chairs -Coffee table -Bed frame -Mattress -Desk -Dresser -Rug -Lamps And I'm planning on going to CostCo, Ikea, Sticks N' Stuff for cheapies. I'm just dreading how I'm gonna transport everything there. ------------------------- I was gonna write about something else going on but I'm outta energy. Tomorrow! G'night!

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Venting, etc.

So I think I've found a place to get my hair styled and cut. It's getting really long and icky so I'm excited to have it have some body again. I need it to be about 2.5 inches shorter and I think I want it to kinda look like this. Yes, I realize that's the girl from Final Fantasy and no, I've never played it before. The boy thinks this is hilarious because he is an avid gamer and has been telling me all along that Advent Children is a pretty movie and I'll like it. Yay, hair whoo!   *************** An old friend friended me on Facebook.com the other day. I am waaay too tired to be a Facebook elitist, so now I just re-friend anyone who asks including this guy. Anyways, I would normally think that the reason this person added me was to have his friend's list be 256,934 long or whatever the number is to beat these days. But, he also left me a message which was really nice. It was something along the lines of "we haven't talked in a while and I was just talking to so and so and I was reminded of you. What are you up to these days, etc."   The thing is, I'm not sure what to think. Our friendship did not end well. He was being what I thought (and still think) very clingy("where are you?? what are you doing?? who are you with? are you avoiding me??!") and we argued and I literally said to him to Fuck Off. Yeah, I know that wasn't very nice. But I am thinking of responding to his message, just so I can handle things more, uh, maturely this time. I'm not even sorry our friendship ended all that much. He didn't like any of my other friends so I was avoiding them to hang out with him. It was for the best, really. We spent all of our time together and I didn't like the person I was (and was becoming) when I was around him. I'm just ashamed of how it ended. I guess I have habit of burning bridges with friends. Another friend I just froze out after my sophomore year of college. And this person, we'll call her C, I've been friends with since middle school. I ended this friendship because honestly, I was getting really jealous of her and as a result I was getting depressed that I wasn't as pretty, beautiful, glamorous, wealthy, smart as she was. I got tired of being "the friend" at clubs. You know, the friend guys always target so they can get they prettier friends number out of you? I was tired of working my ass off just to get by in college while she was off jetsetting around Europe because she had a trust fund that her parents set up for her. I was jealous of how pretty she was with no effort at all while I struggled to keep my weight down. I still have all those issues actually, and thinking about them now still makes me sad. It was so hard to catch up with her during summer (she went to school in Europe) and have her go on and on about what she did that year when the only I did was work and study and try to keep afloat. I do think it was selfish of me to end that friendship the way I did. She was never anything but nice to me, but I couldn't handle my own crap and the jealousy that I felt. I'm actually thinking of contacting her again, apologizing for the way things went down and trying to be chatty again at least. I have a 5-year High School Reunion coming up this fall and I don't want to have to avoid someone because I can't handle my shit, ya know? Thing is, I don't even know if confident enough in myself to be "second fiddle" (at least in my mind) again. Anyways, my question to anyone who might be reading this long-ass post is have you ever had a situation where you just had to let a friendship go? What did you about it, if anything. Also, what do you think I should do. I guess I'm looking for advice 'cause you know, guilt agghh! *********** Geez, this was not the lighthearted entry I meant it to be. Here, I'll lighten things up a little: A man is sitting in bar when a guy with a giant, orange head comes in and sits right by him. He asks, "Hey man, what happened?" "Oh this? Well, I found this lamp and then I rubbed it. A genie came out and said I had three wishes. I asked for hot wife which is how I met her-" and he takes a photo of beautiful model out of his wallet. "And for my second wish I asked to be rich-" he then pulls out a $100 bill to pay for his drink."And for my last wish, and here is where I think I went really, horribly wrong..I asked for a giant, orange head."

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Living Dead Dolls

Living Dead Dolls Wishlist!! In no particular order:   1. Elisa Day   2. Dottie Rose   3. Bride of Valentine   4. Lottie   5. Kitty   6. Posey   Have:   1. Sadie   2. Hollow   Cute, yes?

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Good day

Today has been a good day, so far. The annoying co-worker wasn't at work today, we got a half-day because of the upcoming holiday and I finally got my t-shirts I ordered off of Threadless.com. I got this one and this one   The first one I like a lot because it reminds me of Battle Royale, one of my favorite books ever. Guns + schoolgirl uniforms = awesome, for some reason. I still have a love/hate thing for Mitsuko. She's so evil, but yet so badass! I guess I like femme fatales because I am so not like that. I am really shy and I'd rather go read something or mix chemicals in beakers rather than start up a conversation with someone I don't know. Ah anyways, I must re-read that book one day. As it is, I have 5 other books I need to read before I get to the point where I'm re-reading for fun. I tried the shirt on (Guy's Size Small) and it seems it's a bit too large for me. I wish they were still selling girly sizes. The second I got mostly 'cause the girl on the shirt is reading, and uh.....I do that a lot. Oh, and pretty colors. I'm a sucker for pretty colors (and packaging, but that's a whole other thing...)   ********** ::Sigh:: The boy has started rotations this week and so he's tired a lot of the time and I don't get to see him as much Most of the free time he gets (and its very little) he wants to spend napping, which is understandable. I feel bad for him, but the selfish part of me misses hugs, kisses, and him calling me "banana-rama", lol.   We don't know whether he'll get the 4th off, but it's not likely. Most likely, some asshat will blow off his hand/leg/naughty bits with some illegal fireworks and the boy will have to stay at the hospital longer. Argh.   *********** I'm glad the weather isn't as bad anymore. This means I have no more excuses to not exercise. I started up running again last week and stopped because of the OMGRAINFLOOD!!111111 So I'm gonna go today. I love my run/walk routine. I crank up my cheesy rock (Queen, Pantera, White Zombie, Kiss), and Hooray for Eyeliner Emo (My Chemical Romance) with some ABBA (yes, ABBA, I admit it!) on my iPod. I always have to spray a bit of Off! Bugspray or else I get bitten. A lot. ************ One very last thing: I found a rather large spider in the downstairs bathroom last week. I haven't stepped foot in there since. I hate crawly things. They're all....crawly and stuff.   Have a nice (spider and bug-free) weekend, BPAL-ers!

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